And we all want trophies, she want a ni**a next to her

Pull up when he flex to her even though she lonely

She look pretty

She's too pretty

Trophies, she have you waitin' there on both knees

She want a ni**a that'll make her really feel pretty

And she don't feel pretty

Don't feel pretty

"You and him…..you and Mang’er…..in the end, are you….” The information he wanted to express was too hard to say, since it was about his own childhood friend. Although Lu Zhanxing’s face was so thick, he couldn’t help but stammer, "Were you two…."

Mo Xi said: "Yes."

дочитала книгу дней десять назад. с иронией несколько раз перечитала предыдущий пост, где я писала, как жду заботы о гу мане. как я начала плакать главе на седьмой. помню, как думала, что должно же наладиться все в конце концов.

я проревела всю книгу, вплоть до последней главы.

/

каждый год я хочу поехать в ботанический сад в это время, чтобы посмотреть на всю осеннюю красоту, и каждый год не получается. в этом году животный ужас настигает при мысли о пинании листвы. без ноги остаться не хочется ну вот вообще.

вчера мы с мамой проехали мимо него по пути в строительный гипермаркет, куда мы направились за тазиком для воды. наш загадочным образом и крайне необъяснимо треснул. этих гипермаркетов по республике штук 5, из них три в донецке и один сразу за. тот, в который мы обычно ездим, разбомбили два месяца назад. второй на жд, куда я и хотела поехать, но мама наотрез отказалась, потому что та часть тоже постоянно под обстрелом. но я настаивала. нам выходить из дома, и тут начинается обстрел как раз той части района, куда я хотела поехать.

уехали в другую сторону — за донецк. гипермаркет стоит на пригорке, и с него прекрасно видно один находящийся неподалеку завод.

— ЯКХЗ, – говорю я маме, тыкая в дребежащее стекло, – часто обстреливается.

возвращаемся домой, читаю новости, и, конечно, вижу про прилеты на ЯКХЗ.

новый тазик — красный.

/

у бабушки контузия. скорее всего, пострадала перепонка (мы это никак проверить не можем), но она заживает. из приятного — три дня назад у нее пошла вода в кране второй раз с марта, и она набрала воды. нам тоже дали воду после двух недель ремонта.

из неприятного — в воскресенье утром ракета хаймерса прилетела в здание администрации города, влетела в фундамент. если бы это был рабочий день, маму бы в лучшем случае очень сильно посекло стеклом и придавило мебелью. сломала бы что-то, не считая ударной волны и все такое. с обратной стороны ее крыла стены нет. в понедельник она по расписанию ушла в отпуск и пошла на работу выгребать стекло, а также принимать почту охуевших всех остальных, которым отсутствие части здания, света, интернета, стекол и проч. не мешает никак.

сижу в очереди к кардиологу рядом с пневмонийными, потому что кабинет врача, в очереди к которому я сижу от часа до трех, находится рядом с рентгет-кабинетом. из приятного — врач очень хорошая и докопалась до практически всех моих проблем и их последствий. из не очень — у меня какой-то зудящий почти-птср из-за событий зимы, и я дичайше боюсь заболеть опять. подходит зима (уже), у меня начинается очень тихая паника и "2 января мама уже температурила, а через неделю я".

мозгу не объяснишь, что в наших условиях быстрее и намного вероятнее получится умереть от обстрела. ему все страшно, что я опять задохнусь.

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у нас сегодня была гроза. дома очень холодно, и неизвестно, когда дадут тепло. а когда дадут, неизвестно, продержится ли оно, или кто-то сольет воду с батарей. в горловке, где ситуация с водой ровно в три раза лучше нашей, ее тоже сливают, и люди остаются без отопления. вполне возможно, что на весь период, потому что взять новую воду элементарно неоткуда.

ем свои крамблы сама и проклятые эти семена чиа, привезенные ритиной начальницей по просьбе риты и мамы, тоже ем сама. повесила гирлянду на стену, достала свою новогоднюю кружку. больше месяца почти не разговариваю с ритой, но извиняться мама заставляет меня.

как-то так все. все как-то вот так.

I’ve always thought it was Aria, I’ve saved a lot of pictures of Aria on Pinterest bc I like her style and I find her really pretty. I also used to like Spencer or Emily (I mean, their style (c’mon, it has always been about fashion, hasn’t it?)), but now I can’t name enyone better than Hanna. She’s like the soul of the group, she’s been through a lot but became stronger and better and never lost her humanity or was annoying. We love Hanna here

Так много нужно рассказать, осмыслить. Так много километров, которые закончились ничем. Интересно, что будет, если эта фура влетит в нас на огромной скорости. Не дай Бог. Предложение оборвалось, едва начавшись. И горы, и тундра, и море, впадающее в лазурно-голубой океан, и чайки, такие мелкие, как песчинки. И водопады, и туман, и самый потрясающий закат. И розовая вода в Карелии. И арктические цветы. И старые стены зданий, почти ровесники моих бабушек и дедушек.

Чужие имена на скалах вдоль трассы, и твое на весь экран. Мантра «я тебя люблю» каждые 20 минут. Рисунок девушки без сердца, и кровь, сплошная, густая кровь везде. И швы у нее на груди перевернутой буквой «Н». Рисунок не нарисован.

Я думала, что после этой поездки что-то изменится. Всё изменилось. Снова. Я теперь какая-то новая версия себя, которая начинает работу над собой.

Я такая мрачная, закрытая, нелюдимая, жестокая и жесткая по сравнению с другими. Смотрю на них: молодость, пухлые щечки, откровения о сатисфайерах и акне, фоточки с тусовок, цветные очки и бусинки. А я такая мрачная, со старящей морщиной на лбу, с нелюбовью какой-то вялой к себе (не ненависть!), с ощущением что я вроде бы хуже их всех, но всё равно круче. В чём?

Только достигнув подушки, не узнавая свой дом, голова показала мне множество неожиданных картинок. Множество неожиданных портретов, и я даже испугалась сначала. А потом поняла: так вот оно, вот что должно было измениться. «Освобождение и другие рассказы».

Hey baby, where were you back then?

When I needed your hand

I thought that when I stuck my neck out

I’d get you out of your shell

My faith is sick and my skin is thin as ever

I need you alone

Goodbyes always take us half an hour

Can’t we just go home?

Nobody else will be there then

Nobody else will be there

Nobody else will be there then

#писатель а #дневник а #любовь #рефлексия #отпуск

Наши глаза ведут свой собственный диалог. Его спрашивают: «я еще тебе нравлюсь? Я ведь тебе еще нравлюсь? Я ведь именно это вижу в твоей серо-голубой радужке? Ты правда так в меня веришь?» и «Я знаю, что ты поняла».

Мои глаза говорят: «Отпусти крючки из своих зрачков. Ну и что еще ты придумаешь? Я не сопротивляюсь, потому что мне интересно. Я вижу тебя целиком, без прикрас. Мне просто интересно, что еще ты придумаешь» и «Я знаю, что ты понял. Я тебя понимаю».

Мои глаза видят всё: красивые запястья, шрамы, истерпанность рубашки, родинку на боку, хитрость, голову леопарда, счет в банке, морщинки уголком. О да, морщинки у глаз уголком, которые будут только глубже и глубже, как и боль, наслаждение, радость, печаль, разочарование, гнев, напряжение, отчаяние, умиление.

Мои глаза видят всё. Твои глаза видят многое.

Я думаю, как я переживу вечер. Я думаю, что уже никому не могу объяснить, что происходит. Когда от человека пахнет родным, и это не кондиционер для белья. Когда от человека устаешь, сам того не замечая. Когда об человека режешься, как о бумагу, но также легко его сминаешь собой. Когда знаешь, что всё в итоге будет правильно и хорошо, но сам еще не знаешь, как.

I used to see the future and now I see nothing

They cut out my eyes and sent me home packing

To pace around the kitchen for scraps of inspiration

Crying like Cassandra, I

Used to tell the future, but they cut out my tongue

And left me doing laundry to think in what I’ve done

It wasn’t me, it was the song

I used to move into the future, bring it all back

Let it bleed through my fingers, a treasure in my hands

Now I creep out when there’s no one about

’Cause they put crosses on the doors to try and keep mе out

The garden’s overgrown

And I run in thе middle of the road (ooh)

Well, can you see me? I cannot see you

Everything I thought I knew has fallen out of view

In this blindness I’m condemned to

Well, can you hear me? I cannot hear you

#писатель а #дневник а #рефлексия #дружба

Электрички — моя тема. Самое острое чувство благодарности я испытываю в поездах, перемещаясь в пространстве. Поезд — это метафора. И никуда мне от нее не уйти.

Сколько лет назад миллионы людей умирали, чтобы мы сегодня могли пить кофе, смеяться и гулять по парку камней. Сколько лет назад, мои бабушки и дедушки помнили, сколько миллионов людей. Сколько жизней. Сколько трудностей, бед, неважных, нечеловеческих условий. Сколько горя, отказов себе, голода и болезней. Сколько всего, чтобы мы сегодня могли коротать время в очереди в аптеку, откидываться на крутящемся кресле, есть черешню. Сколько всего за…

Сколько всего, сколько всего.

Вчера была годовщина деда. 3 года. Начало черной полосы.

Мне стали часто встречаться младенцы. Мне улыбаются младенцы. В эту секунду между мной и моими яйцеклетками происходит молчаливый диалог. Все всё понимают. Я хочу ребенка. Я хочу встретить своего мужа. Я никому не завидую, но очень надеюсь на какую-то звезду. Просто очень надеюсь, что все эти страдания — яблоко-ранетка на огромном серебряном подносе, опоздания на смену на 20 минут (расстрел), товарный вагон с крысами, разорванные семьи, бег за фугасками вместе с женщинами, всё это было не зря. Всё это было не зря.

Мне нужно всего лишь выжить, всего лишь продолжиться. И за это я тоже благодарна.

I’m so wired, fought it, seen it, tried it

I die for you on my terms

When I get my lessons learned

Apples, cherries, pain

Breathe in, breathe out, pain

No, no, Novocaine

Still maintain my grace

How come the more you have, the more that people want from you?

The more you burn away, the more the people earn from you

The more you pull away, the more that they depend on you

I’ve never seen a hero like me in a sci-fi

So I wonder if your needs are even meant for me

I wonder if you think that I could never raise you up

I wonder if you think that I could never help you fly

Never seen a hero like me in a sci-fi

But I’d save a life if I thought it belonged to you

Mary Magdalene would never let her loved ones down

#писатель а #дневник а #рефлексия

Были какие-то умные мысли, забыла сказать. Забыла записать.

Всё возвращается. Спустя 7 лет, пройдя полный цикл, всё возвращается. Как же я так не посчитала? Любимому альбому 7. Лизиному сыну 3. Осенью, это было осенью 2015 года. Картинка начинает складываться. Всё начинает повторяться, инвертироваться, проникать в сюжетные линии.

Танго вернется бумерангом. Смешно звучит, да? Вот эту руку сюда, ногу сюда, голову так…

Есть вещи, которые заставляют меня думать о тебе. Хотя заставлять себя особо не приходится. Что удивительно, мне до сих пор не больно. Как будто так и надо.

Я, как ракета, сбрасываю ступени. Лишнее. Лишние контакты в телефоне. Никогда не понадобятся.

Я, как ветер, мчу на седьмой скорости и чувствую лето. Вот оно. Отпечатывается ли оно во мне? Отпечатывается ли опыт во мне. Иными словами, учусь ли я чему-нибудь?!

Боже, я ведь совершенно другая. Совершенно. И это… ни на что не похоже.

There is no bad, there is no good

I drank all the blood that I could

Made myself mythical, tried to be real

Saw the future in the face of a

Daffodil

Daffodil

Daffodil

Daffodil

English sun, she has come

To kiss my face and tell me I’m that chosen one

A generation soaked in grief

We’re drying out and hanging on by the skin of our teeth

I never thought it would get this far

This somewhat drunken joke

Sometimes, I see so much beauty

I don’t think that I can cope

#писатель а #дневник а #рефлексия

The National gives me some thoughts about how to feel about the love in its common sense. It is a little bit difficult to start write in English, because of luck of practice. The thing is that many people feel exhausted after ending their relations. I feel that love only expands inside of me. It rises and breaths higher comparing with the previous periods of life. I am searching for a real person, making philosophical questions how people interact with each other, how they create their individuals, help and invest their time. Many different questions and not the same text in English.

Почему застрял в моей памяти, совершенно случайный образ? Отличный от моих рациональных суждений и открывающий совершенно другой, но более развитый интуицией, подход к жизни? Философия, история? Поезд чуть задерживается. Почему иногда мы можем себе позволить не только откровенные беседы с совершенно незнакомыми людьми, но что-то большее? Для меня «да» на орешки со сгущенкой было не только удивлением об открывшейся внешней стороне, но и о самой себе. Почему-то это откладывается.

В поисках своей морали иногда плутаешь в критических точках или смотришь на людей, которые уже рассказывают о своем «дне». При чем это может происходить так легко и незаметно в диалогах, а всегда остается притягательным. Я много ошибалась, выбирая, на свой взгляд «антиморалистов», а на самом деле, всего-то раздолбаев, которые вследствие могли потеряться без анализа событий и ошибок.

Интересно, это я сама намедетировала?

Интересно, это все по-настоящему?

Скольжение. Еще чуть-чуть, и… Ну не буду же я сразу кидаться в крайности. Лучше буду скользить по острию ножа. Лучше буду надеяться на продолжение банкета.

Лучше буду искать в соннике только мне нужное значение. Лучше буду…

Боже, какая Эйфория невозможно красивая. Премию тому извращенцу, что придумал так снимать.

A thousand boys that look like you

Cover my eyes eletric blue

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it

But I found out I don’t know shit

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it

But I found out

A thousand girls that look like me

Staring out at the open sea

Repeat the words until they’re true

Cover my eyes electric blue

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it

But I found out I don’t know shit

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it

But I found out

Now you’ve got me so confused

’Cause I don’t know how to sing your blues

Jesus Christ, what could I do?

I don’t know how to sing your blues

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it, but I found out

Cover my eyes electric blue

Cover my eyes electric blue

Every single night I dream about you

Every single night I dream about you

Every single night I dream about you

Every single night I dream about you

Every single night I dream about you

Every single night

#писатель а #дневник а #рефлексия

Кто тебя победил? Никто?

Здравствуйте, вы в капкане. Усаживайтесь поудобнее.

Яд, который ты так старательно смываешь с себя, не хочет уходить. В конце концов, он у нарциссов в крови. Я абсолютно откровенна в том, кто я психологически — потому что поняла это давно. Интересно, сколько черных неразвернутых конвертов лежит в ящике моего стола? Что общего у ворона и …

Точка, ставшая запятой, ставшая чернильной кляксой. Помните такую сказку «Аля, Кляксич и буква А»? Вот и я плохо помню. Кажется, она пыталась научить нас не писать жизнь на черновик…. Но куда деться от черных пятен?

Придумала себе эмоциональные качели и качаюсь на них. Она говорит, ты как будто еще не отпустила. Я говорю, я пытаюсь сохранить эту картонную глыбу глыбой, легитимизировать её, описать и убрать в шкаф.

Я пытаюсь, только картон размок.

And don’t say you’re over me

When we both know that you ain’t

Don’t say you’re over me

Babe, it’s already too late

Just do what you do best with me

Dance me all around the room

Spin me like a ballerina, super high

Dance me all around the moon

Light me up like the Fourth of July

Once, twice, three times the guy I

Ever thought I would meet, so

Don’t say you’re over me

When we both know that you lie

If you lie down, lie next to me

Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie

If you lie down, lie next to me

Lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie, lie

When you lie down, lie next to me

#писатель а #дневник а #чувства #мысли

It was never supposed to become a tradition or anything of the kind, really. It was just Wei Ying, just the first snow, the giddy feeling of it landing on your coat and open palms, melting instantly. But it did. Now, it’s him, the first snow, and the river bank. And the stranger.

Wei Ying has taken to coming to the river to watch the snow land and stifle the city that he has made his home. His, and A-Yuan’s, who is at home now, undeniably plastered to the window of his bedroom with their cat, watching the snow in the headlights of the passing cars. It’s Sunday, the day tellingly gloomy and lead-coloured. Wei Ying’s head knew about the upcoming snow before any forecast did, which still failed. It predicted snow for tomorrow, but it’s happening today already. A-Yuan thought it was ash from the bonfires at first.

Wei Ying is restless against the fencing, the carton tray he brought along is at his knees, resting on the fencing’s platform. It’s nearing five, he can’t feel his hands and nose, but Wei Ying tells himself that he’ll come. If he doesn’t – well. Maybe next year.

He busies himself with watching the snowflakes, or rather graupel, disappear once it reaches the surface. Water to water, stark white into the welcoming darkness of the same kin. It fits the city. It fits Wei Ying. Sometimes he envies the snowflakes. Sometimes he’s the river.

Despite it being the weekend, there’s no one around, because the wind is unforgiving and slashing. The nature invites to join its slumber, and Wei Ying almost did, with A-Yuan and Ghost tucked in on both sides. But he has a plan, a wish, a need to quench. Perhaps the snow will help.

Wei Ying nervously glances at his watch – it’s ten past five, tsks, turns his head and – the stranger is here, watching the snow exactly how Wei Ying’s been for the past hour. He doesn’t fidget – he never does, according to Wei Ying’s scanty data collected over three years. Wei Ying gulps, hands clenching into fists. His palms are clammy and ice-cold, but it doesn’t matter. He won’t disturb the stranger with them, he just wants to say hi.

The man is standing two spans down, the flaps of his grey coat hitting his legs. Wei Ying draws a breath. He wills his hands to cooperate, picks up the tray, and strides up to the stranger. Wei Ying is never shy about meeting new people, approaching them. With this man, it’s different. Wei Ying doesn’t know why, and it makes him quietly unsettled. Perhaps it will end today.

The man doesn’t turn as Wei Ying comes up to his side, and Wei Ying gives himself three hysterical seconds to realise that the man is gorgeous, even just one side of his face, taller than him, and completely expressionless. Still, he looks stern. Cold, like the river.

“Hi, ” Wei Ying manages, and coughs once to clear his stupid throat. “Hi, ” he repeats, brighter. The man turns to him slightly, still expressionless, which is fine, Wei Ying can work with that.

“I, uh, see you here watching the first snow every year, three years, actually. Me too.” Wei Ying’s heart leaps into his throat as the man turns to him with his whole body. Heavens, how can someone be so beautiful. If he fails, Wei Ying can’t even fling himself into the river from embarrassment.

“I am aware, ” the man says, and Wei Ying’s brain screeches to a halt.

“Oh, ” Wei Ying blurts out, and at least his cheeks start thawing from the blush. So the man has been watching him too.

“I’m Wei Ying, not a creep. I just wanted to say hi! And, ” Wei Ying points down with his chin. “I have coffee. And tea! I didn’t know what you like. I got both.”

The man inclines his head, gaze dropping to eye the tray. Wei Ying swears his brows twitch. Is that how he frowns?

“It’s freezing today, so I thought, ” Wei Ying cuts himself off. He didn’t really think that much, he just barreled into the coffee shop and ordered. “There’s a black coffee, a green tea, fruity, also black, and a cappuccino. Deflated, but, ” he shrugs, the warming talismans flapping on the wind. “If you’d like something else, I can get it! Just say the word, it’s not that far away. I just wanted to, ” Wei Ying parrots, desperate.

The man looks up at him, then down at the tray, then at him again. Wei Ying can’t feel his fingers, but he must be maiming the carton.

“Green tea, please, ” the man says, and Wei Ying breaks into a ready grin.

“Sure! I have sugar packets, in case you need them.”

Now, Wei Ying hasn’t thought of the logistics that well, so sue him.

“Ah, can you?” he says, and the man readily takes the tray from him. He’s wearing gloves, Wei Ying feels. “Thank you! Sorry, I can’t do it one-handed, I’d just spill everything.”

“Mn.”

Wei Ying blushes violently. He tears the talismans from two cups, snatches the green tea one out of its nest, the cappuccino for himself, and ta-das victoriously. “Sugar?"

The man shakes his head. "Thank you."

Wei Ying smiles at him. Something in him unspools. The snow helps.

Wei Ying takes the tray back, hands the cup to the stranger, and lets the warmth from his cappuccino seep into his skin. He watches the snowflakes land on the man’s coat, on his dark hair, on his nose and lashes, melting. Wei Ying looks away, aware of his indecent staring.

He puts the tray on the platform – A-Yuan will enjoy the tea – and turns to the river. The ripples are soothing, nudged by the wind. The snow is growing stronger, the day darker, his trainers slippery on the wet pavement.

They keep silent, and Wei Ying is okay with that. More than just okay, if he’s being honest.

“Your hands are cold, ” he hears amidst the whirlpool of his thoughts. He turns around.

“Huh?”

The stranger is done with tea, it seems, and he watches Wei Ying’s blisteringly red hands. “Your hands. You are cold.”

Wei Ying shrugs. “It’s fine.”

The man inserts his cup into the tray and takes his gloves off, which –

“No, it’s fine, no need! I never carry gloves, and A-Yuan always scolds me for it, but even if I do, I always forget to wear them, or I lose them, so I never even carry gloves."

The man takes Wei Ying’s cup next.

“You can lose them, ” he says, taking Wei Ying by the wrist and shoving his hand into the glove. It’s fuzzy on the inside and treacherously warm. Wei Ying’s stomach lurches from the touch of fingers on his skin.

“Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

It’s first snow again, late this year – it’s December already. It’s Wednesday, past Lan Zhan’s bedtime, but it’s snowing, so he made amendments. Wei Ying unscrews a thermos with tea, while Lan Zhan holds out two cups. The tea steams in the cold. Wei Ying is wearing Lan Zhan’s gloves, ultimately too big for him, but he refuses to wear another pair. Any of the three pairs Lan Zhan had bought him.

“You should have worn a hat, ” Lan Zhan says, ever the worrywart. “Your hair will get wet.”

"If i get sick, you’ll kiss it away."

Lan Zhan hums his assent, and takes the thermos from Wei Ying.

The river is already hidden under a thin layer of ice, almost translucent. The snow is soft and slow, like an early morning kiss.

Lan Zhan hugs him from the back, warm, familiar. The river bank is empty, people getting warm elsewhere, on the night of the first snow.

Wei Ying is shivering in the embrace, overwhelmed and grateful. More snowflakes in the tea, on his gloved hands, on Lan Zhan’s hair.

Wei Ying watches the river. He doesn’t feel like it anymore.

Is it how love dies? On a dull Monday during a mild quarrel over the same things? Sad. I feel like I’m 15 again and heartbroken, frozen, numb. I don’t wanna see them, I don’t wanna come to them, I don’t wanna share feelings and thoughts with them (though to it anyway just for the sake of a long-lasting habit). I want to be alone. I want to read books, work with people without getting to know each other, just be off alone. It’s saddening me so much. Why did it come to this? What have I done wrong? Why?

открываю Besieged. тэги:

#you thought you’d seen Married before

#this is maximum Married

мы женаты.

мы же на ’ты’.

когда-нибудь я перестану завидовать выдуманным персонажам.

Hello everyone! Actually, I don’t even think that someone reads my posts and really interested in me and my life. But it is the best way how to express all my feelings and thoughts now. So, what has happened. We were writing test at the lesson of History on Tuesday. I was preparing for the whole evening and night and was sure that I’ll write it successfully! The next day, when I wrote this test I was on the cloud nine! I thought, that I’ll get high mark. BUUT! The next day she came and told that we don’t understand the material and don’t even learn history. I was shocked, when she read my work. She didn’t mention whose test was it, but I understood, that it was mine. She made an angry face and read my sentences. As a result, I undestood that she wanted to say about my level of understanding history in general. I was disappointed and upset too, because she had never done smth like this before. I am sure, that there’s some pupils in our class, who don’t even try to understand it, but why she didn’t read there works? Hmm…

i am so tired of this world and studying mostly…

Hi, everyone.

Actually, I am not in such a good mood as during my winter holidays.

I had an Olympiad this weekends and as a result I am so tired and exhausted.

I have no desire to study and work hard. I can’t even understand, why I am doing it, because it only takes a lot of time and seemed to me boring and useless. I am talking about such subjects as Biology Chemistry or Physics, for example. All teachers are trying to give us more and more homework, that only make us robots. We don’t have enough free time and thoughts about freedom or happiness.

So, this is all my feelings now. I believe, that I will overcome these hardships and my life will be full of bright moments!

I am so exited now to write this post. Actually, it’s smth new and unusual for me, because I have never written about my thoughts and attitude towards smth in social networks. Yeah, maybe it sounds strange, but I am Ukrainian and decided to have a blog in English. It is a great practice for me.So, I hope, that smb would be interested in my personality and development!

I wish 2019 is the year when you start putting yourself first. It may be the time when you let go of toxic people and find people who treat you well. Don`t be afraid telling people "No" or doing something you don`t want to do just to please someone.

I wish 2019 is the year when you find yourself. I hope you find something you are really interested in, something, which makes you passionate. It may be anything, a new hobby or a pleasant job.

I wish 2019 is the year when you finally realise you don`t need anyone to complete you. You are whole yourself and it is sometimes okay to be alone.

I wish 2019 is the year when you start loving yourself and stop doing yourself any harm. It is okay not to be perfect. Everyone makes mistakes and nothing actually matters until it`s important for you.

I wish 2019 is the year when you are in harmony with your body, your thoughts and feelings. Everyone deserves to be happy and so do you. Happy New Year!

Ссылка года: play.google.com
Фильм года: "Призрачная красота", "Остров проклятых "
Сериал года:" Черное зеркало "
Открытие года: астрология
Событие года: увольнение с работы и начало обучения в академии
Исполнитель года: Vivienne Mort, Miyagi, KAZKA
Книга года: "Я віддам тобі сонце", "Чоловік на ім'я Уве", "Черепахи аж до низу "
Песня года: слишком много треков для выбора. Вчера услышала "Хватит убегать" Моя Мишель, которая описывает весь этот год. Еще есть Пицца "Это хорошо" - она включала свет, когда было совсем темно. А еще ведь "Дама", "Perfect", "Спать с тобой", "За миражами", "НЛО", которые отзываются во мне особенной любовью и болью.
Концерт года: Vivienne Mort
Вещь года: два колечка, напоминающие о самом сокровенном
Цитата года:" А може, а раптом не так, і світ не злий. І світ не злий "
Самое яркое воспоминание года: комната отдыха, морские волны в Одессе, вершина Говерлы, шаг в невесомость.
Вывод года: адаптироваться можно абсолютно ко всему. Нельзя позволить себе застрять в месте, где нет счастья в настоящем, а только в воспоминаниях. Мысли не материальны, не стоит их бояться.
Ожидания от 2019 года: принимать решения с уважением к себе.

Надеюсь кто-то знает английский. Ведь перевод замечательный.

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic… don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought… it figures

Mr. Play-It-Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
" Well isn't this nice… "
And isn't it ironic… don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought… it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out
When you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic…don't you think
A little too ironic…and, yeah, I really do think…

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought… it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out.

The load sensor is used to detect the change of diesel engine load and convert it into DC voltage output in proportion. The speed control unit is the core of the electronic governor, and the transmission of the self-speed sensor and the load sensor is accepted. After converting the voltage signal to the DC voltage, it is compared with the speed constant voltage.

The comparative comprehensive task is completed by the digital calculation in the microcomputer. Then the digital integrated signal is converted to the analog signal through the DA converter and then transferred to the electro-hydraulic servo valve. Obviously, in steady state, the output of the microcomputer in this way is zero.

However, the speed governor of the external users is constantly changing, that is, the M resistance is constantly changing, so the steam intake of the steam turbine must be changed accordingly to ensure the resistance of the M steam. Otherwise, the speed of the turbine will vary greatly with the external load. When the external load increases, the speed will decrease and the external load will decrease..

Well, let's talk about the speed limit control of these countries. Although it's really cool to drive, there's no need to expect too much. There's a good name for the law enforcement team. The car may cause the safety accidents to occur when the speed limiting device for vehicles is broken, the brake failure or the power shortage, and so on, which may lead to the danger of speeding and even falling in the car. The function of the speed limiter chip is to stop the car and prevent the passengers and equipment from being hurt in the above cases, thus avoiding the occurrence of safety accidents, so the vehicle speed limiter system is an extremely important part of the elevator's safe operation. In general, the speed limiter must carry out the type test before going out of the factory.

What is the working principle of the speed limiter and the safety tong? Speed limiter and safety tongs are very important mechanical safety devices. The speed limiter is connected to the safety rod on the two sides of the car by a wire rope. In order to ensure the speed and accuracy of the speed limiter, a speed limiter is installed in the bottom hole of the well.

https://www.h-nec.com/c/speed-limiter_0027

⠀⠀ все происходит так, как должно быть.
и я верю в это. поэтому стараюсь ни о чем не жалеть.

6 сентября я сделала ооочень большой шаг. 9:22 pm - время, когда меня охватила буря эмоций. сейчас все объясню.

я такой человек, который в принципе мало куда ходит и мало что видит. у меня на это попросту нет денег. да, стипендия капает на карточку, но я не хочу ее тратить, а просто коплю, чтобы однажды потратить на что-то значимое. но в принципе, я никогда не ходила на концерты исполнителей, которые мне нравятся, не ходила на большие фанвстречи с людьми, которыми я восхищаюсь. я знаю, что многое упускаю, но во мне всегда есть доля сомнения, что все напрасно.

но 6 сентября у меня появилось желание что-то поменять. я почувствовала дикое желание, что мне это нужно СЕЙЧАС, я ХОЧУ сделать это СЕЙЧАС. я хочу почувствовать счастье, бурю эмоций и сейчас, и потом. в последующем.

я вложила деньги в мечту. в тех персонажей, которые меня вдохновляют и которых я люблю.

я купила себе билет на twenty one pilots. в первую фанзону.
если рубить, то только с плеча, ага? :)

вдохновила меня на это действие песня "my blood". я просто думаю, что она должна быть моим гимном. когда я ее слушаю, я и плачу, и смеюсь, и танцую, и мечтаю. я ее так люблю, так люблю эту песню. она настолько потрясающая. каждое слово просто до глубины души.

"when everyone you thought you knew deserts your fight,
i'll go with you
"

и вот к чему первая фраза в посте.

меня познакомила с этой группой бывшая подруга, сейчас знакомая и в целом хороший человек. да, наши пути разошлись, но, в первую очередь, в самую важную очередь, она отдала мне этот кусочек себя, эту часть своей души. именно благодаря ей я, слушая top, чувствую близость с самой собой и с тем, о чем они поют.

все не бывает просто так. люди расходятся, когда им больше нечего отдать. и больше нечего взять. и это абсолютно нормально. в общем, я надеюсь, что она прочитает это и перестанет меня ненавидеть, а попробует меня понять.

я иду на концерт вместе со своим очень близким и хорошим другом Ирланом (вы могли видеть его в моих сторис, если подписаны на меня в инсте с :), Рубеном, Машей и, возможно, Эммой. я рада, что жизнь сводит меня с такими потрясающими людьми, открытыми, добрыми и честными. за короткий срок времени я его очень-очень полюбила, и я надеюсь, что те 75 долларов, на которые он купил билет, были потрачены не зря.

вот и все. посмотрим, что из этого выйдет :)

msbrightside:

Smash Mouth – I'm A Believer
Я верю


I thought love was only true in fairytales
Meant for someone else but not for me
Love was out to get me, that's the way it seemed
Dissappointment haunted all my dreams

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The art of losing isn’t hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother’s watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster.

—Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan’t have lied. It’s evident
the art of losing’s not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

Натыкаюсь еще иногда на "картинки из прошлого" - идеальные, скомпонованные натюрморты со всеми культовыми признаками wellfare state: макбуками, помадами MAC и Tom Ford, кофейными чашками и бокалами с Moёt, круассанами только из печи, сумочками Furla, флаконами Byredo и стыдливо раскинутыми лепестками роз, тюльпанов, пионов. И были эти снимки - в прошлом - таким будоражущим, живым доказательством существования красивой жизни, амбиций и абсолюта в материальном мире планеты Земля. Были. Были! До тех пор, пока суровая жизнь не показала изнанку блогерского делопроизводства, пока сказка не превратилась в тыкву. Этого абсолюта не существует. И не существовало. Иллюзорный виртуальный мир ты никогда не перетащищь в сбербанки и собесы, в ясли и забитые вагоны метро, не предъявишь для скидки на кассе "Пятерочки". Депрессию, скуку, похоть, болезнь - ты спрячешь, обрежешь квадратиком и отфильтруешь до необходимости, но наоборот - нельзя. Зато ты очарован. Хоть на миг насладиться сотворенным диджитал-совершенством - и умереть, заполняя бланки на шенген в душной очереди. C'est la vie.

P.S. Меня тут так красиво поснимали, выложу позже. Оля <3

Farewell the ashtray girl
Forbidden snowflake
Beware this troubled world
Watch out for earthquakes
Goodbye to open sores
To broken semaphore
You know we miss her
We miss her picture

Sometimes it's faded
Disintegrated it
For fear of growing old
Sometimes it's faded
Assassinated it
For fear of growing old

Farewell the ashtray girl
Angelic fruitcake
Beware this troubled world
Control your intake
Goodbye to open sores
Goodbye and furthermore
You know we miss her
We miss her picture

Hang on
Though we try
It's gone

You need a big God

[Тебе нужен большой Бог,]

Big enough to hold your love

[Достаточно большой, чтобы вместить твою любовь.]

You need a big God

[Тебе нужен большой Бог,]

Big enough to fill you up

[Достаточно большой, чтобы наполнить тебя.]

You keep me up at night

[Ты не даёшь мне спокойно спать,]

To my messages, you do not reply

[Ты не отвечаешь на мои сообщения.]

You know I still like you the most

[Ты знаешь, что я люблю тебя больше всех,]

The best of the best and the worst of the worst

[Лучшего из лучших и худшего из худших.]

Well, you can never know

[Пускай тебе никогда не понять,]

The places that I go

[Куда я ухожу,]

I still like you the most

[Я по-прежнему люблю тебя больше всех.]

You'll always be my favourite ghost

[Ты всегда будешь моим любимым призраком.]

Sometimes I think it's gettin' better

[Иногда мне кажется, что становится лучше,]

And then it gets much worse

[Но становится намного хуже.]

Is it just part of the process?

[Это просто часть процесса?]

Well, Jesus Christ, it hurts

[Но, Господи Иисусе, это больно,]

Though I know I should know better

[Хотя я знаю, что мне лучше знать.]

Well, I can make this worse

[Что ж, я могу сделать ещё хуже.]

Is it just part of the process?

[Это просто часть процесса?]

Well, Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ, it hurts

[Но, Господи Иисусе, Господи Иисусе, это больно.]

Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ, it hurts

[Господи Иисусе, Господи Иисусе, это больно.]

Shower your affection, let it rain on me

[Излей свои чувства, обрушь их на меня дождём,]

And pull down the mountain, drag your cities to the sea

[Сверни горы, подвинь свои города к морю.]

Shower your affection, let it rain on me

[Излей свои чувства, обрушь их на меня дождём.]

Don't leave me on this white cliff

[Не оставляй меня на этой Белой скале.]

Let it slide down to the, slide down to the sea

[Давай скатимся с неё, скатимся с неё к морю,]

Slide down to the, slide down to the sea

[Скатимся с неё, скатимся с неё к морю.]

You need a big God

[Тебе нужен большой Бог,]

Big enough to hold your love

[Достаточно большой, чтобы вместить твою любовь.]

You need a big God

[Тебе нужен большой Бог,]

Big enough to fill you up

[Достаточно большой, чтобы наполнить тебя.]

Florence + The Machine - Big God


The NDIS is one of the forms of reform or help. With the support of NDIS, handicapped children, grownups, adults may all work as their own aspirations in life. Exactly like NDIS, a number of different organizations are focusing on providing a much better life for those who have disabilities including kids, adults and elder citizens. However, as a normal people, do we handle handicapped individuals appropriately in our everyday life? It's somehow a harsh fact that discrimination does not exist within our society. That happens because we do not know. There are few items NDIS provider kids with handicap expect from this planet, for example:

Acceptance

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Respect

We ought to honor and treat fairly. Though they give particular hospitality because of their nature, they nevertheless have to be treated just like any other individual. As an example, if you're speaking to somebody with hearing handicap, avoid crying at them while speaking, rather talk lightly and let them watch your face. Learn how to respect their private space. By way of instance, do not push an individual's wheelchair without their consent, they may not want to help you at the moment. Aside from that, always include them in discussions, do not neglect their remarks. Simply since they are disabled, that does not mean that they do not anything to say.

Service

Whether it's psychological or physical support is the one which each disabled person would anticipate. We have to give them inspiration to try in their lifetime. Do not body pity, condemn, bully, tease or offer. Empty guides about the might have and should have. It's not necessary to always help if you find a physically challenging person. A world of encouragement. Do not hurt their feelings and ruin their self-respect to boost their own confident. Do not hurt their feelings and ruin their self-respect by not supplying them moral NDIS provider offers support.

Disability is not a curse, it's the gift given by god. It's extremely easy to judge an individual by using their handicap, but it's difficult to live their lifetime. Do not clip their wings due to their handicap, rather have them fly outside their limits.

A criminal lawyer is a person who is in charge of a criminal offence for their parties. There are various types the lawyer will have to deal with such as the claimants, the defendants, and the witness in a trial and third party who was at the scene of the crime or murder.

In order to solve crime problems in Sydney, all people that are in charge has to go to the Court as they need legal and expert advice. It is always important to get legal advice from lawyers before you take any further actions in regards to legal cases.

It is never easy to deal with criminal matters. Therefore, now I will be dictating the role of the defendant, the claimant, and the witness.

First in regards to the defendant

Since every criminal attempt leads to misleading consequences, the charge has to be proven by the police and prosecution beyond the reasonable doubt especially following the Egg-Shell Skull Rule test to identify the case in a better way.

As a defendant,

By right, the police and the courts will be having reasonable evidence and proof to clarify the cases. It is a must for judges and also juries. Even though the defendant pleads guilty, but they have given right to express their story and what happened in the situation. It would be easier and convenient if the defendant provided an honest and fair answer.

Therefore, it is important for a criminal lawyer Sydney to act professionally and loyal to investigate the case which might result in fraudulent answers from the defendant just to safeguard themselves from being charged.

Next in regards to the victim

It is highly possible that the victim is the principal evidence of the scene or offense. Therefore, their evidence and the reports lodged at the police station and prosecution department place a vital importance in getting a conclusion.

Even though they are the claimant, they too have to undergo some counseling and legal process to double confirm the case to avoid any misunderstandings between two parties.

Lastly, the witness. Sometimes, the witness does not really take into account as they merely saw the offense and sometimes they might change the whole scenario just to protect defendant mainly to withdraw the cases. However, they might feel offended or nervous to give their information in a trial or hearing in Court. With no worries, the criminal lawyer in Sydney and the court will give protections to the witness to escape from any harm and consequences.

In a nutshell, criminal offenses are becoming more violent and worse day by day in Sydney despite the developments of the country. Therefore, the criminal lawyer has to be more peculiar in deciding the case and the judgments. A criminal lawyer could be either at the side of the claimant or defendant but the decision is based on the judge and no one is above the law. Always get expert advice from a criminal lawyer Sydney.

Не ходите, дети, в магу поступать. Она вас сожрет и не подавится. А вообще, вообще, вот чисто по-человечески обидно: пять лет жизни отдать Университету, чтобы он в летнюю сессию так с тобой обращался.

А Аркадный Огонь - вечен.

A thousand girls that look like me
Staring out at the open sea
Repeat the words until they’re true

Cover my eyes electric blue
Now I can’t get my head around it
I thought I found it
But I found out I don’t know shit
Now I can’t get my head around it
I thought I found it
But I found out


Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na


Now you’ve got me so confused
‘Cause I don’t know how to sing your blues
Jesus Christ, what could I do?
I don’t know how to sing your blues

Now I can’t get my head around it

I thought I found it, but I found out
Cover my eyes electric blue

Cover my eyes electric blue
Every single night I dream about you
Every single night I dream about you
Cover my eyes electric blue
Cover my eyes electric blue
Every single night I dream about you
Every single night I dream about you
Cover my eyes electric blue
Cover my eyes electric blue
Every single night I dream about you
Every single night I dream about you

Ну что. В первый день нового года, я, как обычно, бесилась, и, как необычно, зачем-то напилась. Видимо, чтобы потом полночи размышлять о водке и собственной жизни. Вирджиния Вульф не читается. Вообще ничего не читается, потому что надо же сосредоточиться, а это решительно невозможно. У меня тут еще на проводе готовый-на-все-мужчина, выложившийся на максимум, который терпеливо ждет, когда я приду в себя. А я не хочу приходить в себя. На айфоне не работает Touch ID, бабушка ждет, что я буду убираться на кладбище, никто не даст мне денег на коррекцию зрения и новые шмотки, и, самое главное - на ноутбук. Нечего надеть под новый жакет, который был получен странным и не очень красивым путем (какой-то патриархальный флэшбек с прикидываниями гофрированным шлангом). И посреди всего этого безумия - май, и +27 вчера и +13 сегодня, и так всю неделю (ну хоть не снег, хотя на 9.05 обещают). И - посреди всего этого безумия - новости от Флоренс, чистые, безумные, яркие, глубокие, в 4-ый раз точно в цель бьющие…"posing unanswering spiritual question in a pop-song - we'll probably never found out, so we can dance about it". И я бьюсь об заклад, что она влюбилась, что все это так сплетено паралельно, специально, удивительно. И ты снова выживаешь, впитываешь, выпиваешь до последней капли кажду строчку, каждую секунду, каждый звук того, что сам сказать не мог.

"…There is a bigger heartbreak underneath. You don't love yourself"

At seventeen, I started to starve myself
I thought that love was a kind of emptiness
And at least I understood then the hunger I felt
And I didn't have to call it loneliness

We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger

Tell me what you need, oh, you look so free
The way you use your body, baby, come on and work it for me
Don't let it get you down, you're the best thing I've seen
We never found the answer but we knew one thing

We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger
We all have a hunger

And it's Friday night and it's kicking in
And I can't dress, they're gonna crucify me
Oh, but you and all your vibrant youth
How could anything bad ever happen to you?
You make a fool of death with your beauty, and for a moment

I thought that love was in the drugs
But the more I took, the more it took away
And I could never get enough
I thought that love was on the stage
You give yourself to strangers
You don't have to be afraid
And then it tries to find a home with people, oh, and I'm alone
Picking it apart and staring at your phone

And it's Friday night and it's kicking in
And I can't dress, they're gonna crucify me
Oh, you and all your vibrant youth
How could anything bad ever happen to you?
You make a fool of death with your beauty, and for a moment
I forget to worry

When confronted with the legal issues of the family, the most important thing in the world is Camden. For obvious reasons, you need only to hire the best practitioners. Although Camden's law on the family issues is no way different from those of other counties in this country it would still be a huge issue. Doing so will somehow provide you the advantage of getting a higher percentage of winning your case. Is simply this Reason why more and more Individuals in Camden facing legal-Matters involving household Issuesopted to hire only some of the best lawyers in Camden specializing in the family law of the county. Of course, those people have the different perspective on Camden's laws and their clients. Here are some of the most important things in the world: Camden:

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· Getting the best legal advice - if you are going to hire only the best practitioners in the domestic act Camden, you will definitely get the best legal advices you wish to get. Nearly all the clients of the legal issues of the pertinent to the family issues, they would surely want to seek only the best legal advice from Gryphon Lawyers family law Camden they can possibly get. This is actually human instinct as I may say. I mean there is no one in my mind who would not want to get off the hook from any legal problems. And most often those individuals believe they can surely get the best legal advice only from those who are truly expert on the matter and even the best in this legal profession.

· To be well represented in court proceedings - while winning a case is a big issue for those facing legal charges on family issues, it is equally important for them. This is why it really is important to get the services of solicitors.

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so here's the thing. i've done a lot of thinking and now i feel like i've reached some sort of closure. the other day i was talking to this girl and it felt to me like she was everything i am not. she had all those guys proposing to her and generally being crazy about her all the while she was really practical and didn't really love any of them. and i was like: jeez, why can't i be like that? why am i always putting my heart out and getting awfully hurt in the process? but then, while we smoked outside, she told me: 'i'm so jealous of people who can love like that. i've never felt it. you know, i love those creative people who always seem to have something going on for them. sure, they feel depressed most of the time, but god, do they burn.. and i feel like a lightbulb who just goes around and emits this really weak light. not burning. sometimes i try to create some sort of fantasy for me when i get bored. i convince myself that i'm sooo head over heals with someone, that i can't live without them. it's never true'. and it dawned on me. she wanted to be me. yes, i got hurt a lot in my life. i am crazy emotional and sensitive. sure, experience taught me that sometimes i need to tone it down a little. no one is obliged to deal with my mood swings and fits 100% of the time. i need to work on that. but on a deeper level, there is nothing wrong with me. i burn. i put myself out there. i know what's it like to feel the highest highs and the lowest lows. i have that to offer to the word. someone out there is going to be crazy about that, someone out there one day is going to cherish that in me and feel lucky. sure, it will involve a lot of work anyway. but this time from both parts. and that person will love that crazy flame i have to offer. just like i loved his (although much short-lived).

House automation is the brand-new means of making our residences almost run themselves. From the lights to an e-mail or SMS message allowing you recognize your youngsters are the house from college automation is the brand-new method of running your residence. There are many points you could establish to run immediately as well as the advantages are excellent also.

Just how would certainly you want to really feel even more comfortable when it pertains to protection? Automated protection such as c bus home control could offer you satisfaction when it involves your family members and also residence. There are alarm systems that will certainly trigger when a trespasser attempts to breach your house.

C Bus Home Control

The very same alarm systems could activate all the lights, make the front illumination of your residence flash, shut off the air and also heating unit in case of fire to maintain it from spreading out. The systems additionally have cellular phone systems in case your home phone is not functioning because of the line being reduced. Security cams could track the home in and out. There are cams that can be established to keep an eye on every angle of your house so the home windows along with the doors can be covered.

The security system can be regulated utilizing your telephone or the web from an additional place such as your task. You could also utilize your personal organizer to manage the system! There are many brand-new means of establishing your residence as much as for being regulated immediately. What happens if your house was geared up with touchpads that would certainly permit you to:

  • Transform lights on and off in your house
  • Switch on your preferred program
  • Examine the kids
  • Readjust the lights
  • Check your outdoors safety electronic cameras
  • Transform your protection system on or off
  • Readjust the temperature level of your residence
  • Transform lawn sprinklers on or off

The houses of the future will certainly have the ability to do this and also a lot more. Innovation is reaching the factor where we will certainly understand every little thing that takes place in the house regardless of where we are.

One means automated systems job is using a system such as X10. With X10 the existing electrical wiring in your house is made use of as a communications channel to send out messages in between X10 tools (the information is comprised of an address and also a command from the controller to the gadget being managed). These gadgets can be connected to a wall surface electrical outlet or they can be set up in ceiling devices. X10 has the advantage that no added wires have to be run nonetheless some residential properties (based on exactly how the electrical wiring was set up) is not matched to it and also X10 might be undependable.

One more kind is the c bus home control which is a 2-cord bus that transfers power and also information. Although this kind is generally utilized to regulate your lights it can be adapted to regulate lots of various other gadgets. One C-Bus could regulate 255 various points. There are additionally bridges which can be bought to contribute to the C-Bus.

When searching for a residence automation system there are numerous different kinds on the marketplace for that reason you must very carefully consider your choices when purchasing.


A hair salon can be a place where a person is mostly out of compulsion, when it is mandatory to get a good haircut. Although there are a few who may visit them out of choice, like while getting a new hair style, a mustache job, etc. But for me, that's hardly the case and consequently I look forward to hair salons. Well, to be precise, one can find a lot of hair salons in the vicinity but then there are some other things that can not be compromised upon in addition to getting a neat cut. I think many people can find these 'other things' too much on them.

The experience of craftsmen must be known

It is very important to know the kind of hair that can be provided by a hair salon. Many hair salons near me have a catalog or a booklet that I can expect from them. This type of booklet can be really helpful in finding out the offerings of the business. It can also provide good insight on the craftsmen's experience in the trade. Also, there are salons that have everything about the business that can be arrived at easily. Now, each time I make up my mind, I choose to visit a new experience.

Convenience and ambience does matter too

Most hair salons near me. In fact, a place where I landed for the 30 or 40 odd minutes, I do it the same way. I always try to find out the conveniences and ambience of the place before I take the call of hair cutting. For instance, in the summer seasons, it is essentially important to have air conditioners. I believe most people would also share this concern genuinely for all the frankness.

Any type of offers can be useful

There are hair salons near me that offer many types of offers and discounts. Some offer a 10% discount on the first visit and there are others that give a 15% student discount and so on. Well, these things can be invited to the point. Anyway, for some people, these discounts and offers can vary from person to person.

Last but not least, the cost of service should be competitive and economical. I am fortunate in this that the hair salons. Although these are some of the most reputed brands in the business. It can absolutely lend a value for the money.


What is an 'extortion' of offence and just what are the penalties?


Based on a Firm of Criminal Defense Lawyers From Melbourne CBD, a person who can make any pointless demand with menaces:


(a) with the objective of obtaining a gain or of leading to a loss; or

(b) with the objective of influencing the exercise of public duty, is guilty of an offense of extortion.

The highest penalty imprisonment for ten years.

A person is guilty of a much more serious offense of extortion if the individual commits the extortion by accusing an individual.

The maximum in these situations is imprisonment for 14 years.

What is a ' demand with menaces ' offense and what exactly are the penalties?

A demand with menaces is "unwarranted" unless the person thinks that he has she has fairgrounds to make the demand.

Menaces include:


(a) an express or imminent threat of any motion detrimental or uncomfortable to another person; and

(b) a general danger of detrimental or uncomfortable action that is required because of the individual making the unwarranted need holds a public office.

A danger against a person unless:

(a) the threat will cause a person of normal stableness and courage to act unwillingly due to the threat, or

(b) the danger could cause the particular person to act unwillingly in response to the danger and the individual who makes the danger of the susceptibility of the particular individual to the danger.

Is it required for a benefit to having been obtained?

No.


A person is still able to be convicted of extortion or blackmail even though the benefit (or demand) was by no means actually obtained.

For example, if you risked someone else and they disregarded your threats, you can still be convicted of blackmail.


The issue is whether or not to gain gain or result in a loss. The mere idea that no loss or gain.


Also, it is important to realize that it is tangible (that is passed from one individual to another person).


What must the Crown prove?

In an extortion / blackmail issue, the Crown must prove, beyond a reasonable question, that an individual:

Made a pointless demand with menaces; and

In doing this intended to:

(a) Obtain a gain

(b) Result in a loss or

(c) Influence the training of a public duty

Can extortion or blackmail happen without words actually being talked or written?

Yes. Extortion or blackmail can happen through actions, for example, body language. It can be an express or signified treat. For example, a threat might be as easy as waking or a head at an improper time. If this is the case, the Crown needs to confirm that the person was in the meantime.


How can you get a premium if charged with extortion or blackmail?

There are many factors that a Court will think about when sentencing a person charged with extortion or blackmail. Matters that could reduce a include, but are not restricted to:

  • If it is your very first offense

  • You present good character references

  • You display a need for therapy

  • You show real remorse

  • You prove that you will endure extra-curialism (i. e. That you experience outside the Court's sentence)


What is the highest penalty for extortion or blackmail?


Extortion and blackmail are extremely serious crimes. In NSW, extortion and blackmail, bear the optimum penalty of 10 years imprisonment and this may increase to 14 years if the offence is irritated.

What are the possible defenses to a charge of extortion or blackmail?

  • You deny that you extorted or blackmailed anybody

  • You deny that your steps are constituted by menaces any danger and were not "detrimental or unpleasant"

  • You deny that there was clearly any intention of getting a benefit or leading to another person loss

  • You claimed that you were driven to extort or blackmail.

Criminal defense lawyers sometimes get a not-so-flattering portrayal because people assume that they defend guilty folks. However, if you are a suspect in a criminal proceeding in Sydney, you need the assistance of an experienced criminal lawyer, regardless of your guilt or innocence. Acting as the defense advocate of the accused, criminal attorneys play a crucial part in Australia’s criminal justice system to realize that everyone charged with a criminal offense has the opportunity to protect themselves.

Defense Attorneys Secure the Rights of the Accused

Above all, a legal defense lawyer's job is to look after the rights of the accused. Looking after your legal rights under the Bill of Rights was instituted in Australia’s Constitution, criminal defense lawyers are compelled by law to assist their clients by guaranteeing that you are treated fairly by Sydney’s criminal justice process. Specifically, your criminal defense attorney's job is to see that you are permitted:

—The right to stay silent;

—The right to be presumed innocent until proven guilty "beyond a reasonable doubt";

—The right to a trial by a jury of your peers;

—The best way to be free from unreasonable searches and seizures;

—The right to legal defense

These rights are guaranteed by Australia’s Constitution and are applicable to most states. Hence, a legal defense lawyer is expected to provide suspects with protection against the overreach of the AU government in meeting out punishment for any individual accused of a criminal offense. If a criminal defense lawyer is not going to render realistic efforts to watch over your rights or provide effective support, he/she risks ending his/her license to practice law or other penalties.

Criminal Lawyers Defend the Innocent

The second main role of a legal defense attorney will be always to safeguard the innocent. We view each day about overturned criminal cases where new evidence verifies the incarceration of an innocent person that has served time as a result of an incorrect guilty verdict. Even though, most clients of criminal defense lawyers are quite discriminated culpable in the crime they have been charged with, on rare occasions, some of some lawyer's clients are truly innocent. Though a rare occurrence, innocent people are convicted and accused of criminal offenses.

To combat the prosecution of their wrongly accused, criminal defense lawyers have to be diligent in carrying prosecutors and police accountable for every stage of their analysis in every case they handle. Because of this, defense lawyers will need to significantly take their role as advisers to the innocent and the not-so-innocent so that that the one to blame don't escape while the innocent are punished.

Therefore, to accomplish the duty of sustaining a client’s constitutional rights and acting as a watchdog to oversee the behavior of authorities and prosecutors, a criminal defense lawyer must diligently pursue separate investigations to the offense where a client has been accused to secure a trial, then that client is either completely exonerated or that there is certainly enough evidence to prove that reasonable doubt exists to warrant his/her client's release from custody.

And for the many cases, someone who has already reached the point of a jury trial is accountable, defense lawyers are required to offer every client the opportunity to a fair trial. Guilty or not, everyone else has the constitutional right to have a good trial. With a strong belief within the nature of the criminal justice system, reputable criminal lawyers Sydney recognize the best of each and every citizen to possess representation and sometimes must put away their feelings to signify those who have committed very serious offenses.

Criminal Defense Lawyers Also Protect the Guilty

Generally speaking, the persons that criminal defense attorneys like Osullivan Legal represent fall into two categories:

·Those who refuse criminal culpability;

·People who take responsibility for their criminal conduct

Criminal defense lawyers sometimes get a not-so-flattering portrayal because people assume that they defend guilty folks. However, if you are a suspect in a criminal proceeding in Sydney, you need the assistance of an experienced criminal lawyer, regardless of your guilt or innocence. Acting as the defense advocate of the accused, criminal attorneys play a crucial part in Australia’s criminal justice system to realize that everyone charged with a criminal offense has the opportunity to protect themselves.

Defense Attorneys Secure the Rights of the Accused

Above all, a legal defense lawyer's job is to look after the rights of the accused. Looking after your legal rights under the Bill of Rights was instituted in Australia’s Constitution, criminal defense lawyers are compelled by law to assist their clients by guaranteeing that you are treated fairly by Sydney’s criminal justice process. Specifically, your criminal defense attorney's job is to see that you are permitted:

—The right to stay silent;

—The right to be presumed innocent until proven guilty "beyond a reasonable doubt";

—The right to a trial by a jury of your peers;

—The best way to be free from unreasonable searches and seizures;

—The right to legal defense

These rights are guaranteed by Australia’s Constitution and are applicable to most states. Hence, a legal defense lawyer is expected to provide suspects with protection against the overreach of the AU government in meeting out punishment for any individual accused of a criminal offense. If a criminal defense lawyer is not going to render realistic efforts to watch over your rights or provide effective support, he/she risks ending his/her license to practice law or other penalties.

Criminal Lawyers Defend the Innocent

The second main role of a legal defense attorney will be always to safeguard the innocent. We view each day about overturned criminal cases where new evidence verifies the incarceration of an innocent person that has served time as a result of an incorrect guilty verdict. Even though, most clients of criminal defense lawyers are quite discriminated culpable in the crime they have been charged with, on rare occasions, some of some lawyer's clients are truly innocent. Though a rare occurrence, innocent people are convicted and accused of criminal offenses.

To combat the prosecution of their wrongly accused, criminal defense lawyers have to be diligent in carrying prosecutors and police accountable for every stage of their analysis in every case they handle. Because of this, defense lawyers will need to significantly take their role as advisers to the innocent and the not-so-innocent so that that the one to blame don't escape while the innocent are punished.

Therefore, to accomplish the duty of sustaining a client’s constitutional rights and acting as a watchdog to oversee the behavior of authorities and prosecutors, a criminal defense lawyer must diligently pursue separate investigations to the offense where a client has been accused to secure a trial, then that client is either completely exonerated or that there is certainly enough evidence to prove that reasonable doubt exists to warrant his/her client's release from custody.

And for the many cases, someone who has already reached the point of a jury trial is accountable, defense lawyers are required to offer every client the opportunity to a fair trial. Guilty or not, everyone else has the constitutional right to have a good trial. With a strong belief within the nature of the criminal justice system, reputable criminal lawyers Sydney recognize the best of each and every citizen to possess representation and sometimes must put away their feelings to signify those who have committed very serious offenses.

Criminal Defense Lawyers Also Protect the Guilty

Generally speaking, the persons that criminal defense attorneys like Osullivan Legal represent fall into two categories:

·Those who refuse criminal culpability;

·People who take responsibility for their criminal conduct

Even though a huge portion of earth's population drinks wine, a lot of us haven't any clue what’s actually inside the jar in front a person. But the simple fact is that there are over ten thousand unique grape varieties which may be made to wine, and heaps of countries producing wines of every shape and size.

… and color.

Wines, you notice, don't just come in white and reddish. In addition they arrive in sorted colors of pink and also orange and brownish (but we're getting way ahead of ourselves).

The simple fact is that the area of wine is unknown and misunderstood by the typical wine consumer.

What exactly is an aspiring wine lover to accomplish when faced with mountains of drinking options from your wine shop?

Here is a suggestion from Dawine: don't stay on your rut. Not that there is anything wrong with either of those grape varieties. However, in the event you'd like to find a happy medium between the ignorant wine consumers, and also the Know-it-all wine snob, then here's what you need to do:

Know some basic rules

It's commonly known that white wines go with fish and white meat, and that red wines choose red meat. But that is merely the start of narrative. Wines that are created to move along with food have a significant selection of capabilities. In fact, it is possible to come across excellent pairings that totally go against the conventional wisdom and old school rules. So rather than pairing predicated on color, try contemplating dominant tastes in the weight and texture of a certain dish… and then find wines that work well in combination with those traits.

What does that mean? Well how about pairing an earthy, soulful salmon and mushroom dish with and earthy, soulful Pinot Noir? Blasphemy? Not in the modern wine world.

Know it is ok to not know

Too a lot of us feel as we will need to posture concerning our wine wisdom and wine encounter. You notice that sommelier heading toward the dining table and you also start grasping for wine words that you see in a magazine or attempt to impersonate a spectacle you saw in a picture.

Look, not many people are anticipated to be conscious of wine. And the sommelier isn't there to quiz you on your knowledge. They have been there to assist you in making great decisions that fit your taste and budget. So do yourself a favor and small up and get several questions for those who will need to.

Love the experience

Wine does not have to be approached academically by most people. So don't be concerned about studying up, and focus on appreciating the wine experience.

Observe those characteristics you prefer and what that you do not like… and utilize that new knowledge to maximize your potential pleasure by researching more and new wines that fit your preferences.

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Ian: I don't believe in luck. I do believe we've known each other since forever, though.

Sofi: Really?

Ian: Yeah. You know how? When the big bang happened, all the atoms in the universe, they were all smashed together into one little dot that exploded outward. So my atoms and your atoms were certainly together then, and, who knows, probably smashed together several times in the last 13.7 billion years. So my atoms have known your atoms and they've always known your atoms. My atoms have always loved your atoms.

я всячески стараюсь нажимать на тормоз, не спешить и не строить больших надежд, которые могут в любой момент разбиться и оставить после себя лишь острые осколки, оставляющие красные полосы на коже ещё долгое время. но как часто разум уступает дорогу сердцу с его нахлынувшими чувствами и всячески отказывается следовать уже давно обговоренной установке.

я всегда была такой: если испытываю что-то, мне не хочется об этом молчать. мне хочется обволакивать человека собой, внушать ему, как он прекрасен, проявлять заботу и все те чувства, что скапливаются внутри. я знаю, что за всем этим могут скрываться недостатки и плохие последствия, но, видимо, мне всё же проще пожинать плоды собственной наивности и мечтательности, чем удерживать себя от каких-то порывов и думать потом о том, а вот что было бы, знай этот человек, как я поистине к нему отношусь.

мне не хочется распылять себя на ненужных людей, но каждый раз я верю и надеюсь, что вот этот-то человек – это именно тот, кто мне нужен, и отдаю себя полностью и без остатка. но в итоге получается, что я изнашиваю себя изнутри. я всегда стараюсь найти только всё самое хорошее в человеке и спешу сказать ему, мол, ты ведь прекрасен, ты сам-то хоть знал об этом? и несмотря на свою быстро привязанность к людям, я уже замечаю, как с каждым разом мне всё труднее довериться. я не хочу терять веры в людей и как многие сейчас рассуждать, мол, какие все вокруг плохие, я никому не доверяю, хочу быть в одиночестве, собаки лучше людей и прочее. я не хочу закрываться, обматывать себя колючей проволкой, быть озлобленной на окружающих. и несмотря на всё во мне ещё не угасло желание и надежда найти своего человека и благодаря ему убедиться, что всё было не напрасно: мне просто нужно было пройти через многих людей, чтобы в итоге отыскать его.

If I give you a watch, it's expensive and waterproof.Would you put her in the water?Maybe I didn't dare, though I was sure, but I didn't want to be a part of my curiosity, which would really ruin something good.

But, dare the child, a ten year old dare.The grown-ups told her that the watch was expensive and really expensive, because she was waterproof.Therefore, you must keep good and do not fall out of the water.Well, what a chaotic logic.

One day, a group of children together, they all showed their watches, red, yellow, green, all kinds of colors mixed, good-looking very.One of them held up his watch and said that mine was waterproof. I didn't believe you to see it. The watch had sunk to the bottom.Take it out and drop the water, but the needle is still going!

A little girl, her eyes stare blankly wave stare blankly blinked a few times, you looked at the wrist that piece of pink watch, still go, show a very 045 time six point three seconds, she paused, raised his right hand to take off the watch, suddenly remind of mother once said to her, this watch is waterproof, very expensive, very expensive, don't throw in the water.This moment, she hesitated two minutes, want to throw water, like other friends, helplessly watch the ability of the watch waterproof, but also afraid to break the home mother to blame her.She, silent all the time, suddenly took off her watch and threw it into the water.Quickly take it out, the time goes on, the hands still turn.She lifted the water meter excitedly, like a track and field winner holding a mobile gold medal, and I won.It's really waterproof.Ha ha!

Pack your bags and wear your watch and go home!

I imagined the little girl coming home.The girl excited to tell mother, mother a face surprise, suddenly face green.

You, dare how so big, who let you drop in, if true bad what do you do?A: why don't you kids listen to me?

I, mom, it's really waterproof. It's ok!

You, disobedient, unexpectedly not obedient.

So why did mom buy such an expensive waterproof watch?

" Mom said.Well, then you can't throw the water!I can't do that any more!

The simple conversation turned back.Mother's logic never breaks.

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I wonder where the problem is, the whole thing.

When the mother, spend that big price, buy the so-called waterproof watch to give the child, in the heart really what is the intention?Waterproof, but not water.This is a complete adult concern and vanity.Just want to show it to you.

The child?Watch time, waterproof, that means of course you can play with your watch and water, it's that simple!

If one day you see a child with a wristband, show his wrist watch, say see my mother bought my waterproof watch, waterproof?

Do you dare to let it go?

This, of course, is not necessary.Then turn around and walk away.

Don't be surprised, this behavior, the action, must not be for no reason, this all, there is a trace, the answer is his parents.

The world of children is so simple and simple, but as long as doping a little bit of the so-called adult world, the child is also suddenly not like a child, but feel like an adult is dull.

Sometimes, we do pay our dues to pursue more and more, but never think about it. Do we need it?What do we do with these things?If it's just to think that one day you can come out and compete with someone, you don't have to.

If you need to, go for it.When he found it, he went with him.

Needless to say, I am not rare, even if others have said so.

In this way, there are not so many entanglements and hesitations like waterproof watches in life