За 20 минут я прохожу путь от первого человека до апогея космической гонки. За 20 минут я прохожу этот путь в последний раз. Я останавливаюсь там, где стояла в апреле, не видя шедевров своими новыми красивыми глазами в темноте. Я видела только себя в отражении твоих зрачков.

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Апрель. Как много изменилось с апреля. Как мало времени прошло с апреля, а всё уже изменилось. Я думаю о том, куда потом пойдут эти буквы. О том, что больше никогда (никогда, никогда) не будет так. Еще ни один проект я не провожала с такой грустью и печалью. Еще ни один проект не был так плотно связан цепью "рабочее-личное". Мне грустно, что это конец. Конец какой-то эры, последняя черточка иероглифа, последнее число после запятой. Это конец. Ключ поверни, и полетели.

Знаешь, до сих пор, когда я выхожу через ворота в экспозицию, чувствую эти духи в коридоре, я всегда внутренне замираю перед тем как открыть дверь и ступить на мозаичный пол. Мое сердце ухает вниз, легкие разряжаются, и я не знаю, что это со мной. Я думала сначала, что это ты, но тебя нет, а всё так же. Это что-то большее. Все мы — часть чего-то большего. И я иду, подпрыгивая вместе с сердцем, и не боюсь даже, просто чувствую. Что-то большее.

My shadow side so amplified

Keeps coming back dissatisfied

Elementary son but it’s so

My love affair with everywhere

Was innocent why do you care?

Someone start the car, time to go

You’re the best I know

My sunny side has up and died

I’m betting that when we collide

The universe will shift into a low

The travesties that we have seen

Are treating me like Benzedrine

Automatic laughter from a pro

My what a good day for a walk outside

I’d like to get to know you a little better, baby

God knows that I really tried

My what a good day for a take out bride

I’d like to say we did it for the better of

#писатель а #дневник а #рефлексия #работа

Ой, ну вот напишешь сдуру, что не о чем волноваться, так сразу есть о чем. Но в этом, кажется, и состоит вся наша жизнь: череда умиротворений и волнений. Каким образом продолжать работу над дипломом, я не знаю. Солнце светит ярко-ярко, московские жирные облака плывут, как и должны в конце марта. Я твердо решила не покупать пока себе новый телефон, но покупать духи мечты (ну одни, ну пожалуйста). Я твердо решила, что каждый последующий радостный виток отношений лучше предыдущего и стоит того, чтобы пытаться. Прочла свои тексты за последние пару лет - одна чернуха, сомнения, придирки и отсутсвие гармонии. Хотя я сама же и писала о том, как трудно творить, когда тебе хорошо. Теперь я хочу просто качаться на этой сладкой сахарной волне, пока она длится, а потом ждать следующую. Просто отпустить это, довериться весне, радоваться по-настоящему, легче смотреть на вещи. Я нигде и никогда не писала о том, как изменилась моя жизнь с 2015 года, и надо ли? Те, кто меня видит, и так это знают. Те, кто меня видит даже через буквы.

I'm put together beautifully, big wet bottle in my fists, big wet rose in my teeth
I'm a perfect piece of ass like every Californian
So tall I take over the street with high-beams shining on my back
A wingspan unbelievable, I'm a festival, I'm a parade

And all the wine is all for me
And all the wine is all for me
And all the wine is all for me

I'm a birthday candle in a circle of black girls
God is on my side 'cause I'm the child bride
I'm so sorry but the motorcade will have to go around me this time
'Cause God is on my side and I'm the child bride

I carry the dollhouse safe on my shoulders
Through the black city, nightlights are on in the corners
And everyone's sleeping upstairs
All safe and sound

I'm in a state, I'm in a state
Nothing can touch us, my love
I'm in a state, I'm in a state
Nothing can touch us, my love

Don't sing love songs, you'll wake my mother
She's sleeping here right by my side
And in her right hand a silver dagger
She says that I can't be your bride

"All men are false", says my mother
" They'll tell you wicked, lovin' lies
The very next evening, they'll court another
Leave you alone to pine and sigh"

My daddy is a handsome devil
He's got a chain five miles long
And on every link a heart does dangle
Of another maid he's loved and wronged

Go court another tender maiden
And hope that she will be your wife
For I've been warned, and I've decided
To sleep alone all of my life

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Эту песню вчера для меня исполнил мой друг. Я сказала, что мне понравилось, а он ответил, что разумеется, ведь это про меня (fuck thou!). А потом он заменил слово dagger на penis. А я - tender на tinder -> postmodern gang.

Это так, ни к чему. Просто славный был спонтанный вечер.

Wedding period of time is about to dominate the interpersonal calendars of the many, and if you’re clever, you’ll appear prepared. How can one plan for the slew of “I do’s”, you ask? Well, obtaining the grooving competencies not out of par is probably the initially order of business. You’d hate to feel confused on the dancing floor. And also, if you’re single, exactly how are you going to match anyone by simply staring from the sidelines, swirling your iced-down drink around? That’s no chance to enjoy yourself.

The bride and groom don’t should get all of the enjoyment. You may also have a lot of fun at the wedding day when you learn a few truly amazing dance methods, letting you experience a lot more assured and also willing to rejoice.

You Ought To Get Wedding Dance Lessons If…

You’re The Mother And Father of the New Bride or Maybe the Groom

Because you knows the majority of the citizens, there will probably as well be a large amount of focus on you. Your pals, spouse and children, as well as brand new in-laws are just waiting for you to enlighten them—don’t let them down! That is your own opportunity to create a great effect.

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You’re In the Big Event

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You’re A Committed Couple Attending Friends’ Matrimony

Occasionally functional life gets occupied and even we don’t create sufficient time for those we admire. Use the upcoming wedding party in your own organizer being an excuse to reconnect with your wife or husband. Having wedding party lessons is proved to be even better as compared to counseling. And, yes, you may get your partner to take lessons with you.

You realize it’s certainly not you will get to wear and have a night out. Let it go slightly and move onto the dance area thinking self-confident. You’ll certainly not would like to quit grooving after you learn how!

You’re Flying Solo

Rather than dreading another wedding ceremony that renders you recognize how single you might be, make the most of the opportunity to wow someone amazing on the dancing floor! Number of arrangements are usually more passionate to get together people today as compared to weddings—love is in the air along with the vigor is high. You’ll really like making use of your brand new competencies seeing that an ice-breaker, and also dancing is actually a beautiful function.

Using wedding dance training is a good approach to encounter a person new. Men and women seize training lessons all the time, and thus it’d be pleasurable that you can perform with someone who possesses the same plan in mind… Perhaps by the next wedding ceremony, you’ll obtain a plus-one to have!

Wedding Day Dancing Classes to Obtain

If you’re willing to create those legs of at your feet a little fancier, it’s time and energy to decide on just what kinds of dances to find out. In the end, you’d dislike to enroll in a dance class, only to realize it’s not the best for wedding circumstances. Underneath are our proposed wedding day dancing lessons to make certain you’re wanting to experience the tune.

Skilled wedding photographers in Sydney do a lot more than shoot images; they utilize their expertise and training to continually catch those magical moments in a wedding. When you have tried using the service of an expert photographer, you will recognize that.

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1. Have you been really insured?

In case the response is "yes, " ask as many questions as you need to ascertain whether the partnership is ideal for you personally. In case the response is still "no, " nevertheless, do not push through! Find yet another photographer. What happens in the event that you employ a friend of your close friend and he trips, injured himself or even broke his brand-new camera? You have to get shielded.

2. How about your credentials and background?

Let’s say that you are in a job interview, but this time assign yourself as the interviewer. Do not hesitate about asking the photographer about these concerns:

—Just how long are you a photographer?

—Where did you obtain your photography training?

—What do professional photographic organizations you participate in?

—Are you a licensed photographer?

—Have you got a degree in photography?

—Have you ever won any contests?

The experts have standards to maintain and membership in professional institutions. Whenever you decide on somebody who's licensed or retains a qualification in photography, then you are starting the hunt with calibre. Experts have exceptional abilities and trained in artistry and technology, therefore they understand just how to create exquisite graphics which reflect precisely the image you would like to depict.

3. Can I see your portfolio?

A real professional won't have any trouble offering as many references as you want from prior customers, spouses and also fellow photographers. Make sure you telephone the testimonials and discover their feedback on the photographer. Can the photographer catch the mood of your event within her or his photos? Well, he must because this is what he was paid for.

4. How can you discover this distinct photographer?

Ask to view samples from a whole photography session or some selection of photographs from a number of diverse sessions to receive a feeling of security of a photographer's work. This will reveal to you how creative the photographer will be and inform you whether he or she's always good…or simply blessed from time to time.

By entrusting your photos to a skilled artist like At Dusk in Sydney, you will receive exactly what you purchase! An avowed photographer is undoubtedly being a greater level of confidence and knows that your photos are in good hands. Certainly, you are searching for, and almost certainly, love!

Bear in mind, everyone can have a great picture once in a while. However, while you've just got one chance to catch life's most significant moments.