he loves me but he's not in love with me anymore and he wouldn't get back together

we keep talking but he doesn't know if he wants to see me this summer

should we help others while we're suffering ourselves?

it hurts all over my body and i want to cut myself to give the pain one place

i just saw him

we laughed and cuddled on the couch together watching movies

i cooked for him and made cakes for him

he made tea for me

he kissed and hugged me a lot

he didn't want me as he used to

he never said he loved me first to my face anymore

sometimes i woke up to him holding me

it's been five years and i will never be able to let him go

what do i do