i have been on a trip around Europe for 20 days and then had a stopover in Amsterdam. I decided not to go to Moscow and stay in the Netherlands a little bit more. Now i´m alone in an apartment and he will be back on monday. I have no make up, underwear or change of clothing because my baggage is at the airport. I feel like i´m about to have a panic attack when i go outside alone but this july and august is the best time i´ve had in a while.