i feel so sick i'm going to cry

why does everyone around me seem to be so fucking great and amazing and clever and do all this fun stuff

why am i so pathetic

why can't i do anything

why why why

why do i have to feel the need to be special

no one is

i want to be great

i want to write stuff or do stuff or learn just because i'm interested (or at least improve my fucking english it's terrible look at it - "do stuff?? write stuff??")

but no

all i do is nothing

i do nothing

god i'm so sick of it