Routine… this insidious "creature" sometimes devours me completely.
Strange people with endless problems. THEIR own problems. THEIR own businesses. I put that "caps lock empasis" not just for fun, but to underline that peolpe's problems suddenly turn into mine. WHY? Do you really think my life is all about being easy? I, personally, don't think so.
Again… again this oppressive feeling arise inside me. I hate such moments and days. I just want to hide myself somewhere far away from here. I'd like to be happy, I try to be happy, but I can't! Sometimes, it seems to me, the whole world acts against me. Do you think I exaggerate? No way, just the truth and nothing else.
The real thing I should take in is the process of proper relaxing. That may be strange but I cannot get relaxed. I had a bad day today. I felt upset and naughty. Ordinary people usually try to watch a comedy, to hang on somewhere with their friends and so on to lift their spirits. BUT that's not my case. I decided to simulate even worse depressive situation, so that make myself relax. That doesn't work as it should do, obviously + new problems.
Hey, no reasons to be surprised, that's just me!
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