hey my diary…u r not my actual diary, but anyway i want to express my feelings here. And i think it's the perfect place for that.
I couldn't find the time to write everyday about the things that were happening with me here, in America.
Well, first of all, i had a lot of events and mostly all of them, were just came up quick..
Anyway, i the first place we lived was Killeen, TX. It was a wonderful place, i had pretty much friends there. I miss them, my teachers, classes i took, classmates, the house we lived in, our street, the weather, as you can see pretty much everything.
But as DeWayne (my host dad) finished his army (His job was in the Forth Hood-it's a huge army base, and it's pretty close to Killeen) we moved here, in Hot Springs, AR. Now we live with his parents (Pam and Mike- they are just nice people). So now, i'm attending my new school- Lakeside High.
I can say, i have the same feelings i had at the 1st few weeks i've been here. And it's not a good feelings. I mean..i'm just afraid that it's homesick. And i don't want to feel that: i become angry very quick, too shy, i cry often, i feel tired often, i forgot what i'm was goin' to do, i miss my home, and a lot of bad thoughts come to my mind, like if i made a right decision leaving TX…
I love host parents, but as an exchange student i have the problems with them also. I don't want to hurt their feelings, and i don't want to spend my year in America crying everyday or feeling homesick the rest of the year.
I don't know what to do. Maybe i'm not a good exchange student, or maybe my family is just not my type…i don't know. I like them, that is what i feel bout them rite away. And i don't like it so far. But i hope everything will change tmrw…
Because tomorrow is 7-1-2011 and i'm going to be 17! :)
And i hope tomorrow will be a good day :)