I didn’t know feelings can bring so much pain, so long-lasting pain, the kind you can’t escape from. Some say there are5 stages of a break up: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I’ve been through all of them. Sometimes I felt hate, I know it’s not right, I know I have to let already go and be thankful for the good you have brought to my life. I hated you for leaving me and then because I am alone. And I’m not always good at dealing with the loneliness when I face the empty four walls each time when I come home.

So I let the tears come out, and after that it feels like I let go a bit more of what has left of you in me.