i do feel out of the life flow sometimes. seems like i got quite exhausted as i don't have enough energy to do anything, to talk to people or to be around them. i get tired of people and their noise.

besides, it sucks when you're a fatalist and have always thought some people belong with you and those people start to treat you like shit and rapidly disappear from your life (as if nothing ever happened at all). when you don't go to classes because you can't wake up. not only in the morning cannot you wake up but through the whole freaking day. and all these people surround you, make you feel anxious about every single move you do, they juge and you know you shouldn't give a damn about it but you still do because we can't help but to depend on other people's opinion. feeling sleepy and desperately longing to go home.