I really want to change my appearance: cut my hair and dye it and buy beatiful clothes and rings and stuff but I DON'T. I don't buy new clothes, every day I dress in black and I will not change till I'm skinny because I've seen 24354657386756 pictures of skinny girls and whatever they do with their appearance look good and I know I will look horrible if i cut my hair short and wear shorts or skirts or whatever. I just wish I didn't care that much about my weight and be happy with being who i am