You must always live alone. Don't matter with somebody. More precisely it's matter. And it will be your person, but you must be alone. You must wake up in morning, go to park and run. Alone. You know, never do than five things in your day with one person. This destroys. This destroys you. Destroys your personality, boundaries of yourself. If you spend one hour of time analysing what inspired you or backwards - made it miserable - you are on the right track. You live, you reason, you view. It takes only one hour to become and be yourself. Dare!