Maybe this is some groun-ups' love-shit? Like you care about this person and you cook for him and you watch him to take the pills and stuff. Or maybe it isn't even love? It's just some mixed feelings but you're not mad about it. You are not crazy. You don't cry in the middle of night. And you don't want to hug him all day or kiss or whatever. It's nice that his is around but do I really need it? Or I just forgot how to feel something besides hate and anger. Do I need him or I just need the human contact sometimes? I guess I just need drugs. Yea, definitely.