my lovely astronaut…,

live forever!! live! and I'll die alone with all thoughts only about you in my bloody head.

live! live! live somewhere… please live. I just think you alive in place I don't know for some reasons..

i pray to let you go away from my small heart. so small I even not feel it anymore. not feel anything. just your words. every morning wake up and enforce myself to feel sometning SOMETHING like before. to feel your pain.

every moment I try to carry your pain to this world that it could feel all the pain one person can feel..!!! you felt..

but I can't… it's too heavy, and I broke down under this pain. It was heavy for me, for one person with such small heart, small hands and guilty soul. I wish we could carry this pain together again…

I fall