As I open up the door
to find you I blink and then your gone
given to infiniti blanket in meditative obsession
memories now do race through my mind
symphonies of thought Im unable to find
to fill the void between my soul and my thoughts
here is how it all began…

You tortured heart left to trembling hands
that tried to grip the sand locked in an hourglass
the grey shapes that blind you the demons will find you
and lead you back home

you satisfied the craving
when all your raving
lunacy brought you to your knees
and I still remember
the words you spoke
theyll never leave

And Im still waiting for you to return
but the truth is your better off locked far away
And as I look beneath the floors where you once dwelled
Im finding evidence of how you must have felt
a book of photographs containing your own face
but missing your eyes and piles of razorblades
and by your bedside lays a book of half finished venomous scriptures
tale of calamity and crumbling existence
humanities frailties and divine resistance
and as you know watch me wander through madness
craving all my complicated festering sadness
believing all these walls are closing around me
echoing all these thoughts back through my head

ill satisfy the craving
when all my raving
lunacy brings me to my knees
and I still remember
the words you spoke
theyll never leave

And Im still waiting for you to return
but the truth is your better off locked far away

Lay on your back in cloudy fields of forever
look at the clouds in brilliant patterns so clever
disintegrate into the earth and remember
the feelings we shared about our sickening surrender
and I just dont know how to explain
what you took when you left me
a piece of my mind my soul my breath my existence
leaving only moments tattooed in my memories
and for the love of god I cannot accept
what infiniti took from me
I cry out on theses sleepless nights
hoping that youll somehow feel my energy

you satisfied the craving
when all your raving
lunacy brought you too your knees
and I still remember
the words you spoke
theyll never leave.

This is my requiem