i cant even write about it, it doesnt come out right. but he is someone different, there is something about our conversations and the emotions they put me through. i feel complete and comfortable, and i cant get his handsome silhouette out of my mind most of the time. the distance comes first, but while i keep on building the wall around me, i leave out some of the bricks only so i could watch him sometimes.

even in my mind, i sound like such a creep. ridiculous. but oh well