i hate being in this kind of mood. im supposed to be free from all of this. but i cant help it. i miss him. the only person ive ever felt for since ice age and i can't have him? and one part of me keeps on telling me "hey, move on, stop this foolishness, it will work out if God wants it this way, it will be fine" and the other part is like "noooooo you can't do that Kat. he's special, remember?"