wild hearts cant be broken.

Day One - Your stats

Возраст: 18

Рост: 160см

Наибольший вес: 47кг

Текущий вес: 44,5кг

Цель#1: 43,5кг

Цель#2: 42,5кг

Цель#3: 41кг

Конечная цель: 40кг

Thinspo?
Тейлор Момсен в "Сплетнице". Я хочу иметь такие же худые ноги, как у нее, и не думать постоянно о том, как ужасно моя задница выглядит в джинсах

What Makes You Strong?
когда я вижу худых девочек, я говорю себе, что могу стать такой же, и даже лучше - если не сдаваться и верить в себя. даже если мне больно и тяжело, я должна следовать своим целям. я должна перетерпеть это сейчас, чтобы быть счастливой потом

When Did It Start?
весной 2011

Does Anyone Know?
да, но они не воспринимают это всерьез

Do You Want Help?
нет, если под "помощью" подразумевается лечение

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
1200 и менее, во всяком случае, я стараюсь придерживаться этой цифры

Is It For Attention?
определенно. я хочу, чтобы на меня обращали внимание

Are You Depressed?
о да

I AM -
[] anorexic
[x] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[] thirsty
[] drinking something
[x] starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] I was THINner
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I’m single
[] I’m in a relationship.
[] I’m engaged.
[] I’m married.
[] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship.
[] I’ve gotten divorced
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

BAD TIMES
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I can’t swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[] I’m addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[] I’m at my thinnest
[] I’m at my biggest
[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[x] I’ve thrown food away
[x] I’ve spit food out
[x] I’ve fasted
[] I’ve taken diet pills
[] I’ve used laxatives
[] I’ve purged
[] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[] I work out secretly
[] I work out daily
[] I exercise to counteract eating
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I count calories
[] I’ve had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[] I love food
[x] I want to be this way
[] I don’t want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[] I am in treatment
[X] I’m doing this for me
[] I’m doing this for someone
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself