“Are you happy?”
“In all honesty? No. But I am curious - I am curious in my sadness, and I am curious in my joy. I am everseeking, everfeeling. I am in awe of the beautiful moments life gives us, and I am in awe of the difficult ones. I am transfixed by grief, by growth. It is all so stunning, so rich, and I will never convince myself that I cannot be somber, cannot be hurt, cannot be overjoyed. I want to feel it all - I don’t want to cover it up or numb it. So no, I am not happy. I am open, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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