sorry for english. there is only one keyboard on my netbook :)

anyways, the most important news…

i got the email from "Pony Express" and it said that I would be expecting my passport nearly in two days… so its gonna be tomorrow… and tomorrow i will find out if my visa is approved. FREAK! i am so nervous. you have no idea. thats crazy.

i am lost. i dont know what i want. i love my friends here so much and it would be so hard for me to leave them… because i am so scared they would forget me. i dont want it at all.

but on the other hand its a great opportunity for me to go there and start a new life. and i hope i would find my true love there. and like…i dont know. i am confused. thats why i am now like "okay whatever they decide i will be happy with that"

so i think its a good position..

but i am still so scared.