Some things happened in this past year that affected me a certain way in the moment and I had to go and write a song about it in that moment. Hopefully this gives you a glimpse into what that experience was like for me, I don't know that I've ever written a song that makes me as uncomfortable as this song does, but as i said before I think it's extremely important, it's incredible thing and it should be valued, when you appreciate someone and care for someone and there's history as you move on with your life and move into maturity You have to take the experience with you as memories and not your reality