I like to be alone. Actually, I love it! I fuckin love it! I can do no matter what and I'm always right. I can stay in my bed for a whole day. I can speak to the strangers I met. I can do harm. For myself or the others. I don't need to text something like YEA BABE LUV U TOO XXX. I don't need to hug or to kiss everytime we met. In an every place. I can sleep on my own. I can drink whenever I want to. I don't need to look at the horny face when we are kissing. Or pretend that I'm excited too. Yeah, I'm glad that I don't need to have sex because it's gross and I'm like 12 right now or so I guess. But I don't care. I want to check my myshows profile. I don't need to go everywhere like we are tied, I mean hand- in- hand. Yes, sometimes I feel empty and like I'm alone forever without even a cat. And no one understands me. But then, you know, I do things. Some things, like yeah I do harm. There are so many ways to do it. I have 3 already. My favs. And after that I look at me or in my mind and realize that I'm good on my own. Because if I meet someone and like him and we gonna be together forever and talk about everything and if he asks about my, about these things. I just can't tell the truth. I can't do it even to my psychologist. And the worst is that I can't get rid of them. Because it's just a part of me now. So it's better to be alone. It's better for me and for another person. It's safe.