“it’s been a couple of days since we haven’t spoken.. i miss you, i don’t want to be the first one to text you because i want you to miss me. as days and nights go past, i look at my phone to see if you have popped up onto my screen.. but there’s still nothing, i don’t think you understand how that makes me feel.. i lock myself up in my room.. i cry till morning and night not only because of you.. and you know that! you know what i’m going through and to me it seems like you just don’t give a fuck or you think ill be “fine” but i’m not fine i’m breaking. you promised me you would see me more.. it feels like i haven’t seen you in months.. close enough to years.. i’m starting to realise your promises are just words and they don’t mean anything. the worst of all is i hate having the feeling and knowing while your on my mind.. your with some girl or your in some girl, you say that’s not true.. but i’m starting to believe it is. i feel so alone and empty, when i need you the most your not even there.. your to busy partying out there and you can’t even spend the night off doing that just to see me, i see couples outdoors together, shopping, having dinner, being cute etc, why can’t you do something like that with me? it would mean so much to me, being with you as much as possible is the only thing i want.. but no partying and having better stuff to do obviously is much more important to you. i overthink about everything because i just don’t know what’s right and what’s wrong anymore.. i don’t know if your lieing to me, i don’t know if you have feelings for me as much as i do have for you. every answer to what people ask me about you is just an i don’t know anymore answer, i hate hearing from people saying i should give up on you and i deserve better, but all i want is you, i can’t just suddenly chuck out everything we have been through.. i love you but the question is.. do you still love me too?”