he said i need help because im making myself think that im crazy.

yea i need help. i need his help. but he doesnt understand it. do you know how many times i just wanted to stop talking to him, just to stop answering his messages, just to dessapiar for some time so he can realize what i mean to him. maybe i mean to him a lot. maybe i dont mean anything. i just… i dont know. i would come back anyways, i know i would. but sometimes i want him to be so worried about me. to make him realize that im here and i love him, and anything i do is because i love him. i want him to understand that he kills me so many times. that im that kind of girl with who he has to be so gentle with. i want him to understand that i can die any moment.