… I understood I hadn't noticed other months.
I am too tired to form my thoughts in words. They can't explain everything happening inside of my head.
I struggle for my future, trying to take a better place in society. Throughout the entire life I struggle for living. Apparently it isn't enough.
When I hear allegations like "You are so smart so you can do it easy", I become irritative. I reached it by myself not from birth. It was hard but I did it. And I don't understand what disturbs you to do it.
And I used to fix everything by myself. Even lonelinees. If I'm lonely, I connect with my old friends or find a new one. I don't hesitate about what I am going to do.
Assuming my wrongness, I still think that everyone gets award according to their work. But there are many cases when you don't get what you has earned. Especially in our country.
I have a great hope that I will win the exchange students programm. It will let me move to the US for one year. I believe it could help me to understand who I am.