…‘cause I’m still waiting here for that AWESOME HOLY PROMISE to manifest like a kiss on the forehead, like an army of fluttering pigeon wings, like a mighty mighty steamtrain as long as the world is wide, like the one true gesture, the hinted-at TRUEST gesture, the always whispered could-a-been’s, that goddamned promise buried there in stupid fucking chords and phlegm-wail, the stupid shit that broke my skinny teenage spine and breaks my dumb stubborn heart still, the promise the promise the wonderworking promise-promise-promise (wow&hellip ;)