i know that it’s literally impossible but it seems to me that i don’t care right now. the thing is, i’m empty. i am completely empty. and i dunno what to do with this. i’m sick of people who advise me something, and when they are talking they make such a stupid face. like they know my life, like they know who i really am, who i want to be and all other crap that’s inside me. but no sir, they know nothing about me. i’m tired of school. i know this is usual for teenagers but i am impossibly tired of school! of math, chemistry and everything like that. jesus.. i’m 16 years old, there are two years left at school. then exams, then university, then job, then marriage, then family… but what if i don’t want to live my life like that? what if i don’t want to look like everyone? what if i want to run away from school, from university, from marriage? i want to be not like everyone. i guess every teenager wants this. i want to be known, i want people to look at me and say “oh, look, it’s her!” this is not about fame. it’s about what i want to do. and how foolish and childish it may sound, i want this. i want to write plots, i want to direct movies, i want to act, i want to sing. i want to be appreciated. you’re thinking it’s impossible? it may be. but not for me. i know i will reach everything i want. i just know. you might have thought that i’m a crazy teenage girl that doesn’t know what she wants. but we all are a bit crazy. and one day, one day i will go outside and yell out loud. just because my dreams came true. because i’m talented.
and even it sounds a bit silly, i want everyone, who is lost and doesn’t have someone to talk with, i want you to know that you can talk to me. seriously. i’ll talk to you, with pleasure by the way. and guys, please believe in yourselves. please! it doesn’t matter who you are and where are you from, just believe in yourself! do it. and in this world there will be one sad teenager less.