“ Tell me the worst part for you. ” he whispered.
“ I think that might be a bad idea. ”
“ Please. ”
“ I think it will hurt. ”
“ Please. ”
How could I deny him anything at this point?
“ The worst part… ” I hesitated, and then let words spill out in a flood of truth. “ The worst part is that I saw the whole thing - our whole life. And I want it bad, Jake, I want it all. I want to stay right here and never move. I want to love you and make you happy. And I can’t. And it’s killing me. Its like Sam and Emily, Jake - I never had a choice. I always knew nothing would change. Maybe that’s why I was fighting against you so hard. ”