expressing thoughts in eng pt.2

there are many things that i surely realized and things that helped me to change myself for the past 3 years. i probably have known all these before, but the matter is that there came the awareness of particular things.

the thing that remained in my brain and will probably remain there forever is the sense of perception that i had during these years:

i felt a lot of things for people. those are mostly the positive feelings.

the first year brought the greatest songs we could share with each other, weird and hilarious movies and tv shows to talk about;

first friendly and warm, however sometimes still awkward meetings and celebrations at cool cafes, great atmosphere from talking to some people started to appear;

second year brought its first pack of cigarettes to be smoked in one night and one bottle of vodka to be drunk that same night;

the atmosphere of shared feelings, secrets and situations in the past, the sense of infiniteness and endless abilities, inspiration, ideas that were mostly forgotten in the morning; good food to share with friends who share it with you; wine and calming films; music channels (vh1 - we give you more!) and so so much more ! invitations to my place with pizza and veggie sandwiches, talks till 3-5 am. night walks.

third year brought everything new (well, almost, except uni's stuff); new friends to examine and let them enter your life somehow. sports and jogging in summer. new places and possibilities. improvement (even if we didnt notice it, it happened); some arguements and misconceptions of things that were later revalued. weed experience with the greatest people. the main thing that you should always have is a good company of two or more marvelous people to chill with. lsd experience was too memorable to forget (at least for me); incredible talks with weird people or vice versa ? tooo much strange stuff. night talks in the cold balcony place, smoking too much menthol cigarettes. lesbian issues to deal with. relationship problems, the contradiction of it. time of the world that is in a mess now. shit to deal with and to be done while we are young. experiencing new things. meeting new people but having that one around you so close but yet so far. bad and good dreams and daydreams, working hard. dealing with constant need for sleep. cozy evenings with junk food and impressive films. never to be forgotten anyway. can you tell what will happen next ? i hope some more weird things, difficult, but improving anyway. the imp thing is not to forget to live to the fullest. with no regrets and turning backs and people who say you are not supposed to do things you wanna do.