I am guessing this is going to be the place where I will share my thoughs with all of you guys that are going to read me… hopefully. This is not a way to become popular or anything. There are times when you just don't know who to speak to or you just don't have that special someoone to share your pain/happiness or anything alse with. So is this the place to write about your sad and exciting moments? I feel so…

And you have a next question coming to your mind right away - why everything is in English. Well, the reason is simple enough… I would be way too pesonal if it was in my native language. I am just not ready for this.

So.. here I am. 18 years old. With a lot hopes and dreams about my future life. So unsure about upcoming things. With school graduation came a question that scares me the most - what's next? Some people already got into colleges and worry about nothing. And here is me. Trying to decide what I am, where to go, what to do. I always thought that this summer will be the best in my life (18 and free - what can be better, right?), but it didn't turn out that way… Sadly. I am always stressed about my future. Which makes me really depressed. Which, in the way, makes me really antisocial. And BAM… 2 months of summer's gone but I still haven't gone to any wild parties, haven't kiss a stranger or, I don't know, have done some crazy stuff every 18-year old should do. My life now is constant fights with my mother (which, of course, has her own perspective on MY future - which is, of course, is the ONLY one right), watching 'Gossip girl' and going out times-from-times with my best friends. This is miserable and so am I now.

Something has to change… but how?

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