Мужики начинают чувствовать гормональную перемену во мне и подтягиваются. Да, начинаем, как обычно, со всяких придурков, но с чего-то же надо начинать?

Заглядываю ему в глаза и вижу два блюдца с чаем, с чифиром, вижу настоящую монгольскую хитрость, что пробежала пунктиром по родословной пару столетий назад. Вижу, что ему нужно от меня, и как он дергается на словах про возраст. Это совсем не то, что от него нужно мне. О, совершенно не то. Но главное начать, а там разберемся.

Поражаю мужика своим умом (только на 15-ой минуте разговора он наконец-то замечает, что глаза у меня красивые). Курение открывает во мне что-то еще, какую-то другую, надломленную грань. И плюс 20 к красноречию.

А снится все равно он — тот самый, из моей прекрасной четверки. Хочет напомнить о себе, скучает. Во сне он ведет меня вглубь леса, именно ведет, я иду за ним по узкой тропинке в красном платье с вырезом, кулон на месте — ну чисто Лора Палмер на выдание, и думаю: «он что, ведет он меня на погибель?». Мимо из леса идут его гоповатые друзья, которые, завидев вырез и кулон, останавливаются. Спрашивают у него: «ну, если тебе такая не нужна, то мы ее заберем». Он молчит, улыбается и идет дальше.

Просыпаюсь и думаю, что с этим делать, попутно (почти) не забывая отвечать всем этим мужчинам на сообщения.

I had a vision

A vision of my nails in the kitchen

Scratching counter tops, I was screaming

My back arched like a cat

My position couldn’t stop

You were hitting it

And I shouldn’t cry, but I love it, starboy

And I shouldn’t cry, but I love it (I love it), starboy

And I shouldn’t cry, but I love it, starboy

And I shouldn’t cry, but I love it, starboy

I just wanna see you shine ’cause I know you are a stargirl

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Наши глаза ведут свой собственный диалог. Его спрашивают: «я еще тебе нравлюсь? Я ведь тебе еще нравлюсь? Я ведь именно это вижу в твоей серо-голубой радужке? Ты правда так в меня веришь?» и «Я знаю, что ты поняла».

Мои глаза говорят: «Отпусти крючки из своих зрачков. Ну и что еще ты придумаешь? Я не сопротивляюсь, потому что мне интересно. Я вижу тебя целиком, без прикрас. Мне просто интересно, что еще ты придумаешь» и «Я знаю, что ты понял. Я тебя понимаю».

Мои глаза видят всё: красивые запястья, шрамы, истерпанность рубашки, родинку на боку, хитрость, голову леопарда, счет в банке, морщинки уголком. О да, морщинки у глаз уголком, которые будут только глубже и глубже, как и боль, наслаждение, радость, печаль, разочарование, гнев, напряжение, отчаяние, умиление.

Мои глаза видят всё. Твои глаза видят многое.

Я думаю, как я переживу вечер. Я думаю, что уже никому не могу объяснить, что происходит. Когда от человека пахнет родным, и это не кондиционер для белья. Когда от человека устаешь, сам того не замечая. Когда об человека режешься, как о бумагу, но также легко его сминаешь собой. Когда знаешь, что всё в итоге будет правильно и хорошо, но сам еще не знаешь, как.

I used to see the future and now I see nothing

They cut out my eyes and sent me home packing

To pace around the kitchen for scraps of inspiration

Crying like Cassandra, I

Used to tell the future, but they cut out my tongue

And left me doing laundry to think in what I’ve done

It wasn’t me, it was the song

I used to move into the future, bring it all back

Let it bleed through my fingers, a treasure in my hands

Now I creep out when there’s no one about

’Cause they put crosses on the doors to try and keep mе out

The garden’s overgrown

And I run in thе middle of the road (ooh)

Well, can you see me? I cannot see you

Everything I thought I knew has fallen out of view

In this blindness I’m condemned to

Well, can you hear me? I cannot hear you

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эволюция хотелок.

июнь: хочу KitchenAid.

октябрь: хочу духи Jo Malone.

ноябрь: хочу в Карелию.

январь:….Бичэнь.

Когда я говорю, что люди, с которыми вы когда-то были вместе, имеют свойство возвращаться, я это и имею ввиду.

9 месяцев назад он снова написал, что уезжает, и та ниточка между нами, которую я скрывала даже от самой себя, потянула меня назад. По правде говоря, нас давно уже ничего не связывало, кроме этой ниточки незакрытого гештальта, которая никак не хотела рваться, несмотря на редкость наших встреч и то, что я давно была в других отношениях. Для меня до сих пор секрет, как это работает.

Встречи с теми, с кем вы когда-то были близки - это всегда странно. Вам не нужно ничего узнавать друг о друге, разговоры обо всем и ни о чем одновременно. Но у меня было ощущение, что тот год, что мы были не вместе, просто пропал из летописей, словно ничего не изменилось. Но мы никогда не поднимали тему наших взаимоотношений: мне было неудобно, а он говорил, что ничего не помнит. Потом окажется, что я последний человек, которого он видел в России.

С тех пор я сменила работу и научилась мириться с тем, что моей прежней жизни и старых друзей уже никогда не будет и нужно строить что-то новое (а оно как-то не строится).

Одним августовским днем я смогла сформулировать мысль, которая не выходила у меня из головы при всех наших разговорах:

"Тебе не кажется, что в том, как мы общаемся последнее время, есть какой-то фон того, что мы что-то потеряли?"

Это был вопрос скорее для меня самой. И задавала я наверное его сама себе, не надеясь на ответ от кого-то другого.

"Есть. Как будто я что-то упустил. Я просто говорю, что я ничего не помню, я балабол. Мне было хорошо с тобой. Я оборвал общение со всеми ради тебя и думал что-то построить, но упустил момент, когда нам надо было разговаривать. Такой важный момент. Я сам виноват. И у нас не будет кудрявых детей и жизни в Hell Kitchen. Мне кажется, это было что-то вроде любви (я просто не знаю, как это). Все думают о себя и я тоже думаю о себе, поэтому все так вышло. Прости, пожалуйста. Если бы твоим парнем был не С., то я бы предложил начать сначала."

И я плакала, потому что нет ничего ужасней, чем то, что вы понимаете, что совершили ошибку и не можете ее исправить. И мне казалось, что я была готова отдать, что угодно, чтобы вернуть время назад и поступить иначе.

А затем он написал "увидимся зимой" и выкинул телефон в море.

А я пришла домой, рассказала обо всем С., чтобы всем было спокойней, а он спокойно ответил "это всего лишь слова" и обнял меня.

В общем, он и прав и надо продолжать пытаться строить жизнь дальше, даже когда проще этого не делать. На этом моменте, кажется, мы совсем повзрослели.

ANASTASIA

"Princesses don’t marry kitchen boys."

"People always say, life is full of choices, no one ever mentions fear, or how the world can seem so vast, on the journey to the past."

Дорогая бабушка, пожелай мне удачи. Скоро мы снова встретимся в Париже. A bientot…

родительница шутит, что нужно уже готовиться к моему 25-летию, мол, што ты, доча, хочешь? А Я ХОЧУ ЧЕРНЫЙ МАТОВЫЙ KITCHENAID, мама. но ты об этом не узнаешь.

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Among the very first means, automation is making our lives simpler as it would certainly permit you to regulate all the illumination in your home in the power of your hand. State you are lying comfortable on the sofa, all covered with a comforter, as well as you, recognize you have to transform the light in the kitchen area off prior to you could view your flick. Or your children are pursuing the evening as well as you could inform that they left all the lights on upstairs, with numerous automation tools; you could regulate that quickly without leaving the sofa. Lower the lights or transform them off, you regulate it in your hand. With automation, you could shut down lights in any type of space from any type of space, therefore, conserving on your own loan on your electrical expense.

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Certainly one of the worst scents to keep could be your lingering 'odor' of this garbage in the tin. And now most of us understand just how hard it's to remove this smell when it erupts from the inside plastic of one's garbage can. Whether you own a trashcan, then a garbage can, a garbage disposal, so it will not matter: it stinks after the garbage was disposed.

It's perhaps not simple to eliminate this heavy sweetish sometimes sickening smell of this disposed crap, especially from tight areas which don't have enough outdoors. In addition, the issue with garbage is the fact that it is made up of several matters, meaning it's quite hard for air fresheners to work in eliminating a specific odor. Yet all isn't lost: you are able to efficiently and economically get rid of the odor of garbage out of the kitchen or some other place on your property at which you had the litter removed. And on top of that, you have the majority of the tools directly at residence. With all the tips below from a rubbish removal company, you’ll be able to eliminate litter could odor in virtually no moment:

Tidy your garbage can shortly after removing the crap out of this. Put hot water from the tin with a couple squirts of bleach and as you've got plastic gloves, utilize a kitchen sponge to scrub the container out soon after having disassembled the garbage.

Utilization charcoal - it's an item that's incorporated in many smell removing commercial services and products since it's a successful smell absorbent. Simply set a sheet of charcoal within the bin and then leave it for a couple days (of course remember to scrub the bin out as per the very first hint).

Utilize baking-soda - baking-soda at your kitchen is similar to aspirin to get medicine: some cure all sort of thing. Baking soda can be an excellent absorbent, exactly like charcoal. Put the complete spoon (or 2) of baking soda inside the tin then leave the lid available. Leave it for a couple of days and then take it off and place a fresh spoonful of pop in it. Continue repeating the procedure until all traces of this smell are eliminated from the trash can.

Use ground java - Place some floor coffee at the base of your garbage can in a tiny container and then leave it for a couple of days. Coffee won't expel the heavy odor indefinitely, but it'll hide it and leave as an alternative the smell of coffee till you're prepared to manage the recurring smell more effortlessly. Leave them for a couple of days at the tin with the lid shut and remove once the smell is substituted with all orange.

Based on how significant the lingering smell can be, you could need at least one of these aforementioned recommendations to eliminate odor. But regardless of what you do, then you need to wash the bin out after following the garbage. This could be the most effective means to get your crap can't merely smelling fine however also free from germs which is left from the eradicated gunk.

Cleanliness offered rightly!

They say - 'Home is where the heart is! And no one likes walking up to a messy home after a tired office day. The cozy vibe is what suits any home the best. Home is a place to relax in our comfort zone. In today's busy life, we find it hard to maintain our home, and to find out. There are a number of firms that serve with cleaning services in a customized way. They offer a variety of services by sending the people to us.

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Regardless of, every household has a kitchen area, however, a lot of them do unknown just what kind of cooking area they come from, thus the need for kitchen lighting design. Have you ever before categorized your cooking area? What sort of cooking area you have? Is it a rustic or nation design? Where design you wish to transform it, nation to modern or rustic to a streamlined modern-day cooking area? Someone like the elimination of all additional devices develops their cooking area to transform it into a minimal cooking area.

So, it is a reality that you need to understand about the kitchen lighting design you intend to make right into your kitchen area improvement. Whatever it might be, you have to maintain compared to factor in your mind that the cooking area is the only room where we invest one of the most beneficial time of our life. In contemporary idea, kitchen area is not just an office of preparing food. It is utilized as an analysis space; playing video games with your children or talking with your close friends also for organizing an event in the weekend break. In this perspective, you have to think of the enhancement of design as well as additional worth included products in a kitchen area along with the regular daily-useable devices.

Creative thinking continues to be behind each of this revaluation, as well as an important part of that imagination results illumination in an appropriate reliable preparation. The correct illumination style depends upon the design of your cooking area and also on your individual psychology.

There is a huge range of illumination components for the cooking area beginning with the island lights, necklaces, light fixtures, track lights, recessed lights as well as under cupboard lights. It is not that you will certainly be taken into consideration as a great developer if you make use of all type of lights her as well as inside the cooking area. Every design of illumination has its personality and also worth. A few setups of lights often functions far better compared to a lavish setup of all pricey lights. Success is restricted in the preparation.

In the beginning, you need to separate the parts of the cooking area inning accordance with the sort of job. The workplace for preparing food is fairly various in capability as well as the value of the space of your kitchen area where you normally do some crucial documents or check out publications. Every component needs to be lit up by its very own relevance and also different interest is necessary to be attracted to each and every location. This sort of differential lights is called accent lights.

For instance, if you wish to place a unique focus on a stunning huge paint or other artwork that is held on the wall surface or if you place some unique recipes planned for your family members to offer a shock on the table, you require a type of recessed cooking area lighting fixture or straight mounted lights for that. Those lights can be guided by a certain item and also placed added accent relative to various other things.

Under closet, illumination is an additional design of lighting to produce a fantastic destination on the counter leading location which every proprietor prefers to concentrate on optimum. These lights are most cost-effective as well as are really soft as well as reduced. You could have numerous attractive under cupboard lighting fixture within seventy-eighty bucks. Usage most modern-day backsplash ceramic tiles with matching shade as well as structure inning accordance with your selection as well as the motif of the cooking area to include a unique worth of destination. Usage dimmer buttons to regulate the illumination and also the state of mind of cooking area at the various time as well as in various demand.

In the heart of Vietnamese Eastwood culture is their food. Therefore, if you seek to explore anew culture, try the Vietnamese Eastwood variety of foodstuffs that will not only give you the taste and satisfaction you need but also experience their tradition most amazingly. It is worth to know that Asiatic Eastwood meal is a favorite cuisine to many as it encompasses a mixture of Great taste and flavor. Despite the availability of the authentic Mandarin Eastwood cuisine, there is the unique diet you should not miss in case you love to enjoy new exploration. The meals listed below are commonly found in any restaurant in your local area and therefore whether you are on vacation or holidaying, you should not miss them.

• Is there an Annam Eastwood meal that can be served without a pho? The pho has become a staple food for the Vietnamese people such that no Vietnamese cuisine can start without it. Itconsists of fresh rice noodles mixed with a salty broth to give it the tasty feeling you seek. Additionally, to make it a full mix, the meal should contain chicken or beef well-cooked for the occasion. Finally, the cook adds herbs to the entire dinnerto have a complete pho. The meal has established its status as the favorite to the Annamelle Eastwood people and also the whole world and therefore you would not miss it in the local and classy restaurants. The meat is served with other sub-dishes such as a chicken wing or beef tenderloin.

• Broken rice is the favorite of many people especially those that do love taking light meals in the morning. The com tamis best served with marinated pork chops which have undergone proper grilling. Additionally, shredded pork might be added to the broken rice to produce the desired mixture. A good cook may also opt to put customary ingredients that include sliced cucumber and vegetables, steamed pork, fried eggs and grilled prawns. If the broken rice is dry, you might consider having a side bowl full of fish sauces to supplement it. Try this Vietnamese Eastwood Chinese food from qingskitchen, and you will have the experience and memories you will never forget.

• BahnXeoisa cake that produces a lot of noise during cooking and therefore nickname sizzling Cake. They are not only giant savory that contains crepe expanded and protruding with pork, shrimp, and The BahnXeo also includes the garnish of fresh vegetables and herbs that characterize major authentic Vietnamese Eastwood meals. The meals are servedindifferent sizes, and thus, if you enjoy like a local, you must reduce it the manageable size. When you are done with cutting it into the slices, you can handle, roll it up in lettuce leaves and then put it in the sauce that the experienced chef prepared for you.

Summary

The Vietnamese Eastwood local eateries have mastered the skill of preparing a variety of nutritious food that has its roots from Vietnam. Hence, to experience the culture of the Vietnamese Eastwood, you should find it from the food served in their local restaurants.